I was feeling anticipation and excitement about heading to the retreat all day yesterday....knowing that it has been intense as of late, juggling all the balls.....so I was looking forward to the peace and solitude of the retreat.....driving up here was beautiful, it is up Eldred way....the snow had only begun, which I was grateful for..........and there was some remembering as I drove here, of my sister.....the car accident that claimed her life happened not too far from here, and anytime I drive up here, well there she is......all around......so she was on my mind as I drove into the conference center space.....Pastor Niel came to help me carry my stuff.....and I settled in.....and the rest of the night was lovely....we got to know one another more deeply.....learning about some things we might not have known.....shared some of our faith......some meditative spaces.....prayer......and some more traditional worship stuff near the end, and then fellowship......and it was a lovely and a low key way to kick off our time together....it was just right........Today looks like there will be lots of stuff in store to nourish my mind, body, and spirit, and just take a breath.......catch my breath maybe is a better way to express it......I feel like I take a lot of time in my day to day to take care of myself, being intentional of the importance of that......and filling my cup, so it doesn't become depleted and resentful......and it works.....I don't feel depleted and resentful in my new life......not ever.....even though there is SO much more to do in the literal sense to some degree....and I am doing it mostly on my own......and maybe from an outside perspective I would have a reason to be resentful......but I truly am not.... I guess coming from that full cup place, allows you to put all that normal day to day stuff in perspective better and when you feel better physically and mentally the rest is not as troubling......however I have understood clearly that I have been through a lot.....and the juggling of all of the balls......endlessly......does take its toll, over time, despite all of that.....and this weekend feels very much, like a place along the way for me to catch my breath some.......and sort of just be........I am still working on learning how to do that well.....just to BE......meditation helps.....helps keep me in the moment......the moment I am in.....quieting th chatter in my mind......but being more still and present in all ways.....is an ongoing goal and desire of mine.......and I am intentional about my desire to do that.......so this weekend is in line with my goal to do that......to take in this time and just be.....unplug some......and experience what there is to......staying in the present moments of this weekend......not too far ahead......and not looking behind......just looking right where I am.......so I look forward to the beauty of the day as I type this......the people here are so kind and good......good human stuff.....and I know our time here together will continue to be blessed.......Happy Saturday y'all.....take some time to nourish that soul today;-)
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