My North Star.........

I have mentioned this a few times......and it has struck me recently its power......one of the most solid pieces of advice, or nuggets of wisdom, my therapist has given me......is asking me who I am in any given story......who do I want to be??.......how do I want to show up??......and I cannot tell you invaluable it has been to me, in every single circumstance I have found myself in, in the last 15 months........and as of late it has come up again......begging the question......who are you Jenn? And I guess sometimes that question has two sides......who are you?.....but sometimes the question is who are you never going to be again?......sometimes we don't necessarily know who we want to be......but we know who we don't want to be in any given situation......so examining those parts of ourselves keeps us true to ourselves......and in my case true to a woman I fought hard to be.......so every day as I travel this wild ride, I can check in with my gut, and ask myself who I am.......or maybe how should I show up in this situation......because here is the other thing.....old patterns and habits die hard.......they just do.......no matter the work we do......no matter how hard we try......we are who we are......and as I have made this transformation, this rebirth in this life......I have left so much of her behind.......but the fact remains I am still me.......and some things come with you, that you don't really want to......things you no longer want to be......so when things crop up for me......my face points to my north star.......gently asking me......who are you.......who are you Jenn........how are you showing up for yourself today......and the answer to that question is complex......I am simple in so many ways.......but complex in others......and as I try to meet the world as I want it to meet me........I need to hang onto that woman.......get to know her better even......some of her is brand new.......and she is helping me extinguish old Jenn stuff that has gotta go........but I urge you if you are reading this, to get real with that question.......asking yourself what it means to be you......how are you showing up in your life? Are you doing stuff in line with who you want to be.......or are you dipping down into stuff that doesn't serve you any longer.......or contribute to the life you want........they are really amazing questions to ask yourself........and when you ask those simple questions........you get in touch with the essence that is you.......the real you, underneath all that other stuff........and it keeps us honest.......and true.......it is my goal every day as my feet touch the floor........to be who I came here to be......some days I am better at it......some days I lose my way.........but every day I am trying.......every day I am showing up.......with a willingness to live a life I am proud of.......and one that keeps that fire burning in belly! Go make today great and be who you are, you look beautiful like that:)