The EULOGY..........

In the book I read about thriving during divorce, written by my soul sister Whitney, really she and I have done the exact same things;-), it suggests when you are ready to write a eulogy to your marriage, I know heavy right?:( Guess today is as good a day as any.........

What to say about a marriage that at one point was one of my favorite things in my life.......the thing I was most proud of on any given day besides my children.....Our wedding day was one of my favorite days of my entire life.....it will continue to be held sacred in my heart, and remain one of the best days of my life........Continue to be treasured because it was REAL in every sense..... It was a magnificent day. The weather, the vibe, the love, the excitement, the dancing, the joy all of it.....it was like a fairytale......The people that got married that day set out to accomplish happily ever after, till death do us part, all of it.......they were all in, and crazy in love......I am so grateful to my marriage for teaching me so much in my life....for offering such a beautiful space for so long to feel comfort in, to feel loved in......a soft place to land in this difficult world.......to challenge me to grow and to love in ways I had never imagined.....a marriage that required a lot of me, a true commitment to honor my vows.......to teach me how to be strong and dig in.......to take a look at thick and thin and go further in........not run from it but step up to it.......a marriage that brought me some of my favorite memories of my life....the birth of our perfect children.....learning how to be parents....to have our hearts grow larger as they embraced our new humans......learning how to face adversity, over and over and over again.....to be tested relentlessly and often times passing those tests with flying colors.......to be brought to my knees alongside "my person" and know that he would be there to walk in whatever storm we were facing......to have perfect days hanging with our kids, having picnics, parties, entertaining and getting ready for them united as a team......seamlessly, effortlessly......the yin to yang.....a team in so many ways that mattered and felt so so good......holidays, trips, dinners, fires, quiet Tuesday nights.......fun Friday nights...some wild Saturday nights.....weddings, christenings, communion. concerts, pizza night, breakfast sandwiches, cozy pj day, lazy movie day, laughter, just every bit of life, and doing it together.....wanting to conquer it all together.......My sweet marriage I may never understand why you had to die......why the end must come this way.......or be wrapped in such heartache......why all good things must come to an end......why this journey didn't last till the bitter end......maybe one day I will know, maybe I won't, but either way I have to let you go.....release you.......holding the fondness you gave me deep in my heart......releasing the bitterness of the end.......and accepting what you were to my life, and always always remaining grateful for all the gifts, all of them......even the one where you set me free.......even that one........I thank you sweet marriage for all of it........May you rest in peace.......