Through HIS eyes......

I randomly reconnected with an old friend yesterday.....he had been a friend that had spent time with my ex and I when we were young.....he was front row to our relationship......mostly the first time my ex and I had connected a long long time ago.....and as we were catching up, and answering the "what have you been up to for 30 year questions," he was sorry to hear what had happened between my ex and I......and then he said something powerful to me that caused me to pause a minute, and made me think.....he said "I am so sorry to hear that happened, because he loved you so much in those days ...... I was always happy for you guys because of that".......and it stopped me in my tracks for this reason..... part of it was the remembering of that time in my life......and catching a glimpse in my mind's eye of the love he spoke of......but it also reminded me that it is hard to hold perspective of a part of our lives together, when the finale is so problematic.....and have that finale not overtake the whole story.....because the last years of my marriage were so hurtful and ugly.....and painful.....and so many things along those lines, I tend to discard all of it as that sometimes in my mind......and well......that isn't true.....it wasn't all that way.....and it made me question the narrative I have spun some......challenging my perspective now of the whole thing, and the way I see it and feel it sometimes......and those simple words he said to me spoke volumes....reminding me of a different chapter we lived.....just like we are now....both living different chapters.....we lived chapters inside of our relationship for all of those years......not just one....and just because it ended in the light and space it did.......doesn't mean that was all of it......and it may sound silly to make that distinction.....but when you get betrayed so deeply, and treated in the ways I have, it is easy to throw the baby out with the bath water if you will.....and so.....his words rang in my mind.......reminding me, that once upon a time real and true love lived in my story.....a man who was crazy about me.....and I was crazy about him.....and that just because it did not last, it doesn't make it any less worth having lived.....or having experienced.......and so I suppose we never know where life will take us.....or what story will unfold.....and how......but what I do know, as I sit here this morning.....that old saying is playing in my mind "it is better to have loved and lost, than not to have loved at all" some truth found there for sure......and as I have said many times.....people deem me unlucky in love.....but I have never felt that way.....I have been blessed with love in my life a few times....and within that love finding magic and light, and many years, and all the other goodness that comes with love, even amid the heartache that eventually arrived.......and I trust if I have another great love in my life, it will find me....and perhaps be the one that goes the distance, ending with a beautiful finale.....the forever kind:) and so this morning I am remembering the once upon a time people......the people that felt they had a real shot to go the distance......and seeing it from a different point of view......grateful for the perspective.....it is a beautiful thing to gain! enjoy the day:)