Dating!

I have written about dating often along this journey......and I suppose if I am honest I am not really built for dating......or the culture of dating now.......I am a one person kinda gal.....the kind that loves romance, love, monogamy, passion, MY person kinda energy......and the current culture is well.....mostly not that.....and I won't settle for less than all of that and more.....I now expect what I give in love, end of story.......and I think that walk I did on Sunday solidified my belief that I will find what I am looking for.......feeling the alignment between myself and those women......and knowing that that is how it works in love too.....you attract what is aligned to YOU.......and your current state of being......and once that alignment shifts, and you grow, then either they grow with you......or fade right out.....and I have certainly witnessed that along the way.......and so I trust that HE will come along right when the time is right.....no need to challenge that......there is a speed dating event coming up in April.....and I know the person running it, and I am sure it will be great, and at first I was thinking maybe I should go......but then......I really tapped into how I was feeling about it all....and I am not feeling it right now......the meeting somebody new energy......I am focused on the creation of my workshops.......and that is where my energy feels better utilized right now.....and intuitively I feel like he won't be there, not now.....it isn't calling to me, so my plan is to step back some for a couple of months, and let it all unfold organically.......I sometimes feel, and have certainly written about the pull to "put myself out there" some.....and I think that is important......not to get too comfortable or closed off....and I have had fun, mostly......and learned some stuff.....FOR SURE lol:) But........dating a bunch of people, is not my thing.....and now that I am seeing some of what deeper authenticity brings....and energetic resonance......that is what I am seeking.....and believing forever and ever that since I exist so does he:) A guy that believes in the things I do.....loyalty, love, a Gen-X love story if you will;-) Damn you John Cusack for setting the bar so high lol:) Boom box vibing for days, if you know you know;-) So I guess I am laying it all down some.....for now......trusting that it will come to me, when it is supposed to, and whatever I feel called to do is perfect:) My 50th birthday is in a couple of weeks, and I never imagined ushering that birthday in single.....but it feels kinda perfect at the moment.....EXACTLY how it should be.......I have some travel plans for summer.....business building....and getting my book completed finally:) It IS TIME:) And my love story will unfold in its time......I believe that.....I know so completely despite my deep comfort in being single that I won't be single all of my life, and in my next half a century of life:) But there is no urgency in me.....and certainly no desperation......I am in the attracting part of my story.....where my energy, and my vibe attracts my tribe, and that includes love......and he is out there.......waiting on me too, but vibing in his own energy too, doing cool things no doubt:) Growing and evolving too:) So yea.....it is a nah this time to the speed dating event.....not because I don't think it will be great......but this round isn't for me......I feel that......and this gal has got stuff to do for now:) Discernment for days:) Happy Tuesday:)