A stranger's insights.....

I have written about astrology becoming a part of my spiritual journey in my blog....having it seemingly step forward at exactly the time I needed it....life is kinda like that;-) And I fully respect and accept that some people don't really get it, or that it doesn't resonate for them....but for me it does, so deeply.....almost like returning home after a long trip....realizing that maybe its awareness lived inside of me forever, waiting to be uncovered.....and it is not separate of my more traditional faith, and belief in God and Jesus and all of it.....it is very much in conjunction with it.....a spiritual toolbox, if you will, that nourishes me, and keeps me buoyant amid life's challenges.....but there has been power in learning about my chart, and therefore learning more about myself.....how my mind works......all of it.....and in addition to a local astrological connection that feeds my spirit on a regular basis, I have begun to follow some other astrologers, feeling a voracious need to learn as much as I can:) And through the one man that I follow, I found a guy that does readings too...and it was reasonable, and I was immediately curious what a stranger would say, somebody that doesn't know my story and song:) And so yesterday was the reading by zoom....and he confirmed some of what I already knew.....my capacity for discipline and routine....we talked about my writing a blog daily, and he said he was thinking wow that is hard to do every day, but then looked at my chart and said of course she does lol:) Creature of habit stuff;-) My ability for discipline strong.......he also picked up on my ability to see the best in folks and their best potential, and having it be so strong that it can blind me to some of the rest. Taking on an idyllic hue, knowing that that is both my gift and my detriment.....truly seeing the essence of a human.....he picked up on my intuition.....but what was most remarkable is we talked about my business, and my long term plans for my retreat center.....and he thinks that that is perfectly suited based on my chart, but sees the creation perhaps beginning when I am 51 and 52! Even though that is a lofty goal so close to where I am now........Having lots of exciting things to be found in those years:) Maybe even love:) So that felt fun to explore some....he looked at my children and picked up on the deep connection I share with them.....having it right there.....and some things related to my son and some tech that may help him in his future too! But there was also a big revelation related to all of the betrayal I have endured....and when you are born with a certain aspect to your chart it can create a cycle and energy that plays out in your life on repeat.....and he pinpointed that transit and cycle, and told me when to keep an eye out for it.....and he could trace it back to when I was a child....and while I could not remember what circumstance were then, in the years he shared....I could with some of the other years he pointed out up until now.....and now that I am conscious of it I can be more aware....that awareness helping so much. And it was fascinating, because it was right there! Also seeing this cycle appear around the birthdays of those that have betrayed me......fascinating right.....that I think is the most fascinating part of astrology to me.....like a giant soap opera if you will....having different story lines play out in our lives and pick back up.....or end.....or circle back around....and it is a DEEP rabbit hole for me lol:) The more I learn....the more fascinated I become....but the learning of it and embracing of it, alongside my deepening faith has absolutely helped me live free.....no longer fearing what is up ahead.....knowing that every minute is for our greater good....even when it doesn't feel like it in the moment....and that whatever comes for us to look at, to feel, to experience is meant to evolve us.....using the energy to elevate our lives.....if we let ourselves experience it and use the energy that comes, resisting the urge to run and hide from it.....and I could have talked to him for the entire day.....picking his brain....and so deeply appreciating his insight......he shared some other things about me that were spot on....and it is fun to have somebody be able to peek at your inner workings in such a unique way.....as my 50s come around the corner, I am hopeful that they will hold magic and realized dreams within those years......my best decade yet:)