The moment we are ready.........

I have been thinking of this a lot lately.......we all know what we need to do, what is good for us, and we either resist it, avoid it, or make excuses......or simply cannot figure out a way to make those changes in our lives that have a profound impact.....I feel like at this point in my life I am in the best shape of my life......truly physically fit for the first time maybe ever.....my bloodwork supports that what is happening outside my body is also happening inside.....it feels amazing, but the fact remains I could have achieved this in my old life too.....but amid all of the other things, now absent from my life, I could not see the "how" fully.....not a character flaw....not because I was lazy.....not any of those things......I just wasn't ready.....and my therapist talks about this fact sometimes.....he knows the value of daily exercise........meditation.....and he has folks he speaks to that are "on fire" and he tries to impart this wisdom to them......knowing it will help transform their pain......their trauma......their whole lives.....yet most are just not ready......so how do we get ready? That is the million dollar question......what place in us helps us take that advice to heart.....take the first step in making it a reality.....materializing it into our lives.....sometimes I feel it begins with one decision......one......to say today I am going to do _________ and then tomorrow I will again......on repeat till it feels like home......I have travelled in and out of places on my life where I consistently do "the thing"......the thing I know is good for me.....but then something comes to derail.....or to challenge its place in my life.....and I forget.....or stop doing it......or something.....I am committed though to the stuff of now.....of hanging on to all my daily habits for dear life.......not letting them go for anything......not forgetting the value each brings to my life......to my day.......to my sanity......to all of my life......it is a promise I am making to myself.....because the truth is all these things would have made a deep impact on in my old life too......but I didn't realize then it was OK to give to me too.....to not focus so much on the taking care of everybody else but ME.......and now I know......and so I have the responsibility to make those changes stick for life.......to try and impart them on my children......now in their lives.......so they will have tools to carry always .......so if we make the decision......to do something we know is good for us.....each and every day......those decisions tend to grow......they attract other decisions.....one moment, one day at a time.....and the power of them grows.....I am excited about what other habits will come to find me as I travel this path........possibilities seem absolutely limitless.....only hampered by my imagination......excited and ready for what is next!