FREE will.......

I have been a deep dive lately into really thinking on my journey, and where I am right now.....and just feeling absolutely blown away by all of the pieces that fell into the last almost 50 years, that led me right here.......particularly the last 5 or so......like so many subtle and not subtle shifts, that carried this new story into existence for me.....my ex leaving on that fateful night in early January of 2021, and the word fateful just hit a little different this morning when I think of that......and then about a week later my reconnecting with an old friend, one offering help and solace, that would end up to be another fateful part of my journey......picking up the lesson, from a different view, one I absolutely had to learn, one that called for me to choose differently though this time......and choose me......and I brought up astrology the other day, and I know some people don't believe, or understand it, and I respect that and that is fine with me......but if one were to actually look at what was going on energetically for me in that one week, in the sky, they too would be at least curious.....the exit of my ex.......the friendship spark of the other man so close together......it was fated.....karmic destiny if you will.....and I guess it fascinates me that all the players at that time had to play their part.....my ex and his girlfriend, myself, and my old friend......and the energy supporting it all.....to walk my way to a core life lesson that would drive my life now, and my passion, and what I feel to be my purpose.....and obviously all those things didn't just happen for ME......they also kicked off their stories......their new trajectory......the lessons they were being called to learn and live.....all the players in that story.....and here we all sit.....all these years later.....in our new stories, that time period being the catalyst.....the one that brought about the deep change in all of our lives that has happened......I also now know, after some more research, as to why this last connection was so strong, and so hard for me to break free of throughout the past couple of years, until I was able to do that.......and understanding that layer is SO helpful.....because there were times I thought I was losing my mind under the pull of it all, and wondering why my discipline wasn't having her say, but timing is everything also, and being supported energetically definitely matters........and I say ALL of that to really say that all along we all had FREE will......having had the opportunity, despite the energetics, to choose a different path.......being called to shift the story in a different direction, I really believe that.......I do not think there was only one path for us all.....I truly always liken it to those choose your own adventure stories, I LOVED them a a nerdy kid....turning to different pages to read the different possible endings.....and life is like that......one move, one different decision, one chance to choose our higher selves, or our lower one.....one moral test given......and how we choose is everything......setting up the trajectory of our whole lives......and often times ones that hold such weight that they cannot be undone......and we live in the aftermath of our decisions, both good and bad......every action holding those consequences.....and for me it never gets any less magnificent to think of.....all of us coming into this life with a "blueprint" of strengths and challenges, and given the SAME opportunity to alchemize them well.....deciding what path we will choose.....not being destined to give into our lowest selves.....we always have the choice to rise above that blueprint......and change the game......I also believe that......I have overcome some stuff that for sure wasn't aiding in my journey.....like fear and anxiety just to name two.....having had a propensity toward those things written in my blueprint.....and I suppose as I type that, that has become my goal.....my overreaching one......to try and extinguish the stuff that I need to, the stuff that doesn't serve me, so I can live my highest good, Amen:) My also having things in my blueprint that have made me more susceptible to being taken advantage of in love......recently finding ways to eradicate some of that too! And I could go on and on.....naming some stuff I feel I have conquered, and some that I have yet to tackle;-) But when I really understood the WHY surrounding that early January point 5 years ago, it clicked......lots of karmic energy swirling and tests being presented to us all.....and we all chose our FREE will and here we all are now.....living in the aftermath.......and I am still so fascinated by the human condition, my inner life coach is very much curious......having deep curiosity to interview all the participants lol:) and find out what they would say about the inner workings of their last 5 years lol:) From a unemotional and neutral place now.......and it would fascinate me to hear it all and see how it all played out among the stars and lives.......and even though that won't ever happen......I do know that we are walking in stories that reflect all of our choices today......simple but true........and I will continue to stay in my lane, and try and choose the things that take me to all the places my heart wants to be! Happy Sunday:)