MacGUYver......

Remember that show?? Obviously for my title today I am playin on words some;-) But I promise I have a point lol:) One part of my life that challenges me some, are some of the tasks around my big place that need to be done beyond my capabilities, and that start to stack up.....the deep guy stuff ;-) And even as I typed that it makes me feel some kinda way.....because I am challenging myself to decide whether I really CAN'T do something.....or if I just haven't done it YET:) And sometimes it is frustrating.....my ex husband was very handy.....able to do so many things around here that needed to be done, that truthfully people likely hire people to do.....I just never had that vantage point, because he could do it......and having a big house, and a property to maintain, while working full time, running a business, and single momming is kinda a thing lol:) And currently my wood shed is near collapse....and besides the fact that it looks horrid amid the rest of my home.....and property......it is no longer functioning, not housing my wood pile well......and my dad is going to help me figure out how to resurrect it......I thought we may be able to use the old gazebo that he took down to make room for the new one......but I guess it won't withstand the weather, even if we reimagine the top etc.....that would have looked way better with a new tarp on it and all of it.....but as it stands it is a pallet shed, which I have never loved.....but I am trusting the way of making it work again will appear.....but there are things that I want to be able to just DO when I want to do them, and it can feel frustrating to be limited in what I can accomplish by myself.....My daughter often coming to my rescue with another set of hands.....hanging curtain rods, you name it.......and so I want to touch up my deck with stain.....and get it ready.....my birthday party is coming up soon, I am having it here, and I want my yard to be lovely again, and spring ready:) I also had the septic emergency this past weekend, also a thing I did not want to deal with lol:) water pouring out of my tank.....but I am SO grateful to report that it was the lesser of the two things it could have been.....it was either going to be the float needing to be replaced, or the entire pump.......hundreds versus thousands to repair.....and I leaned into trust all week.....knowing that it was going to be the float not the pump.....and the guy came yesterday and it was the float!!! So we are back in business......crisis averted;-) So I lament and say all of this to say that I plan on broadening my capabilities, and learning some carpentry skills this spring and summer.....i want to be able to do more things myself.....I have some landscaping ideas, for sure some painting to do, which I have been doing for awhile......but the only way to handle my frustration is to solve it and learn it:) A nice man from my dad's church offered to help my dad put together the new gazebo which is lovely:) It is a two person job for sure! And there are no limits really.....only ones we place on ourselves.....and I have battled the GUY part of me in my new life often, it asks me to get uncomfortable, and dig into places of myself that don't come naturally or easily.....and learning SO much, and taking over SO much, even when I didn't/don't wanna lol:) SO here I am again....next level.......wanting to become more independent with smaller home projects that I want/need to do......I have a drill set that I need to learn how to use better.....I wish they had classes or something......Handyman 101 or something lol:) I will get there;-) For now I am so grateful for the help I have in my life......my dad is a huge help, and support on the tasks that stymie some......this weekend is supposed to be beautiful, so I plan on hitting my yard pretty hard....and touching up the deck.....and my shed....and learning patience.....realizing that some things need to wait, and not be done on my time.....which I suppose is the challenge for me, and my desire to do it myself....learning to manage all of it party of one, no set of extra hands in the day to day has definitely been an adjustment........I am also so excited about my party.....we started sending invites out, and a lot of YES is coming back:) My property will be filled with all the people I love and all the people that have made these 50 years special, my college roommates might make it too!, I have more invites to send out over the next few days too.......and it is humbling to realize all the amazing people I know, and have known, and that are in my corner.....I am truly blessed, in all of the ways......so this morning's blog is about recognition of a place in my life that has room for evolution and expansion, and well MacGUYver, here I come;-) Have a great day:)