Single mama swimming.........

For years I admired single moms......always imagined what their lives were like and had a soft spot for them.....I have known and known of fierce and capable single moms for as along as I can remember......and it is funny how we never think.......we just never think.... that it can be us......until it is.....and when I joined the ranks I was proud to do so......feeling it is maybe one of the most honorable things a person can do......step up and hold two roles for your kids.....in their day to day......and so here I am, doing my best each day to make it all work.....and not having another set of hands is tough sometimes......juggling childcare and before and aftercare, and work and whose schedule is whose, and who needs to be here and picked up is so hard.....and I am so grateful to my parents this week for helping due to my having an early morning meeting Wednesday, and Open house on last night.......it is a constant juggling act.......then the garage door acted up again and my amazing neighbor was back to the rescue.....I am so blessed to have them in my life too......what divine blessings in every direction......and when it gets heavy I try and just breathe my way through it and assure myself I can do all things in whatever day is right in front of me.......and not to let the rest overwhelm......but it is not easy for sure......and it makes me feel sorry for the people that do not have the resources I do, and the single moms that are literally all alone.....it is nothing short of miraculous that they pull off their day to day! Because the truth is most days it really is fine......feels comfortable this new life......it is the logistics always with the kids and work that bring these feelings......the feelings of having to swim so hard in the current......not being able to be in multiple places at once;-) and this year particular I have had stranger angels step up to help fill some gaps which has been amazing.....making some new friends and connections as a result......and it is all covered.....which makes my heart so grateful! Tonight Gabe starts his manager life at the football game! He is so excited, he is also staying after to practice the star spangled banner to sing with the chorus first! Eating at the diner in between with the chorus kids and living his best life.....so I will continue to swim......I am a strong swimmer after all;-) and know that I will continue to be blessed with all I need to be able to walk this journey, and make it all happen for my kids, and take time to step back, take a deep breath, remain present and enjoy the ride!