Therapy what????........

I have gone to therapy at certain points in my journey....the first time was in my 20s when anxiety came, and touched down in my experience, finding me with its strength and might, and turning my life completely upside down.....and therapy was the way....I had a therapist named Elliot....an older Jewish man that I liked very much.......he helped me find my way past that, by showing me the power found in Cognitive Behavior Therapy......the power to reframe, and in turn reclaim my thoughts! :)It was powerful work.....and I revisited him again after my sister passed.....as a preventative measure.......concerned that that event would kick it all off again....but it did not....and then my ex and I dabbled in marriage counseling when our son was small....and I wish we had stuck with it....but childcare and finding the time was our challenge, and excuse for not at the time....and we only went a few times.....and then as his affair came to light and we found ourselves back there....and we did marriage counseling for two years....and I did the work, and was all in, and he was hiding his affair from myself and the therapist....and then in the aftermath of my divorce, and his leaving for her, therapy became my anchor.....my continuing with our marriage therapist myself.....going consistently....and doing all of the work till I "graduated" from it a couple of years in lol:) But now every once in awhile I go in for what I have coined as a "therapeutic tune-up"......and perhaps as I think of it now, this blog helps me so much, and to only need those once in awhile appointments....because this blog has become therapeutic....allowing me a place to HEAR myself so clearly, in one keystroke, clarity will arrive.....and that is similar to the experience I find in therapy....I went yesterday for a tune- up....and it was lovely to see him....the last time I had been in was in March....and this past year has carried so much weight, and I have processed so much, that I felt like unpacking some of it would be good, and it was:) I truly believe that every person would benefit from therapy....in a true sense.....it brings so much clarity, and understanding to our experiences....and one thing I wanted to explore some is my feeling as if I truly came out relatively unscathed by this last betrayal....and I wanted to make sure I wasn't missing something, or having it hidden away....because for me, as soon as I saw who he was....so clearly....to the point of not being able to unsee it, my logical self stepped forward, and that was it.....clarity staring me in my eyes....and nothing more to consider......he proved himself to be all the things he said he wasn't.......that was it......all of it left in this blaring and ugly light, and my therapist said that my experience of how I am doing, and feeling, and have done with all of that, is true.....that because I have been brave enough to do all of the emotional work I have done....and continue to work on my emotional healing on a regular basis, knowing how I feel so completely, being willing to check in with myself, that I am doing all of that with an ease that comes from practicing it so often....not having some of the complications of healing present in this story, like they were with my ex husband's betrayal.....so that was good to hear, and I feel the same....I am willing to face my demons and slay them whenever they arrive.....on repeat....and my inner world feels really good right now....healthy and strong....and grounded......clear......and so many of the normal questions that arise within betrayal are moot, because it was about him.....fully....a pattern he has had for years and maybe will continue to have, so I got to unpack that, and also my near death experience which was profound too.....but also ironically empowering in a very strange and powerful way, and some business stuff.....and I continue to be grateful for his presence in my life....he is a great therapist, I have referred him to many of my clients.....and friends......he is really good at what he does, and I credit a good deal of my success in this story to his role in it:) We spent hours working through the aftermath of my divorce, and all of it....and it was crucial for my healing.....and I will know when it is time again....to shoot him a text and get into his schedule....the need making itself known......when the time is right....I feel lighter today....happy and grateful for his insight....I undecorated all of Christmas on Friday night and yesterday morning, an enormous feat....so much up and down the basement steps, and heavy lifting....but now I am sitting beside my little Valentine's tree, I cannot help myself ;-) and happy for the light of that and on my fireplace still:) And I feel grateful for all the health that lives within me, considering all of what I have endured in this life......truly.....it makes me emotional to think of, I have been through so much and yet......:) I recommend therapy, if you are climbing mountains...it helps I promise, changing everything:) Nothing to be ashamed of....humans need other humans:) Happy Sunday:)