Tonight is the night!!

So tonight is the women's night! And my speech:). It is kinda hard to believe and super exciting......as I said I have been super intentional about my dreams lately and have seen some of them sprout wings......it is kind of amazing to set an intention.....envision and then watch it come to life! I have been practicing what I will say in my car......writing it down on paper is not me......and I know when I connect to my heart my words will flow....I feel whatever connection it is that finds me when I speak is the same one that I channel for this blog.....it just comes through me as it connects to my heart and what it has to say.....so I will trust that! Feeling a little bit of nerves this morning! Guess I wouldn't be human if I weren't right:) But more than anything I am feeling grateful for the opportunity and really exicted that I have been given the opportunity to share my story! I have felt drawn to this night, since the first time I saw it posted and I know that whatever comes of this night is meant for me.....for all of us there tonight! I am so excited to be inspired by the other women and hear all of their stories too! What a powerful concept and night ahead.....I never really considered all the things that come up against women......I suppose I always knew them but never had time to examine them in a real way.....just running my own gauntlet and trying to keep up and do all the things that were expected of me.......but there are some real challenges that are unique to women.....and they run deep in our society and in societal norms....and gender roles.....and as moms and wives..... it is really time to take a look at! Gender roles are just that......roles we step into that make sense to us based on what we have grown up seeing or experienced in our lives.....and really most need to be changed and looked at.....as a single mom now, I have done many "male" things in my life this past year....and most of them I have really enjoyed.....some not so much;-)but they were things I hadn't tried before myself due to the clear roles that were established in my life.....and it is really funny to think of.....how we get so locked in......I mean my life is better for having used my big and tough snow blower, LOL:). Without a doubt......but if I had stayed married the likelihood of my ever using it would have been slim......but more importantly even wanting to......in my marriage I suppose traditional gender roles were present......and then some.....I took on most of the house stuff, kid stuff, paying bills........he did outside stuff, fixing stuff, and would help me clean sometimes........and he grilled and cooked from time to time......but most days there was that line between us.......your jobs and mine.......and now I really think that is ridiculous.....and that a much better thing would have been for us to share all of it....helping each other accomplish the tasks of the day in an equal partnership......we both worked full time, therefore the chores at home really should have been more even......but again those roles take over and make it hard for us to see our way out......so tonight in thinking of women's empowerment and how important it really is.....and all the issues that lie within......I am wildly excited to be a part of it all, and to cross another dream off of my bucket list:)