When you know the truth.....

My divorced ladies series kicked off Monday, and one thing that came up was the truth we live in.....we know the story that played behind closed doors, the actions that happened in the aftermath, and the things that were done.....and the truth is the truth.....telling a lie over and over again doesn't make it true....it just doesn't.....and while marriage is a two way street....fully....when certain things happen, well......that is where the story lies....and we not only talked about some of those challenges, but also talked about that in terms of other people.....people that have fallen away since we began our new journey.....and how that is icky too.....like we are not doing what I thought we were huh??? I have had that moment a few times....realizing that I thought I had a relationship with a person that wasn't true, not built on what I thought, or as solid as I thought.....that what I thought we were doing we weren't?? And it is disorienting......no question.....but I know the truth about these people now....a list....not a long one....but a list....and I keep that truth to myself mostly....not spreading it about town......only having confided in my close people, comfortable knowing their truth will be seen by others, and it is likely they will do those same things again, as that is who they are.....and they have some folks fooled, no doubt, but that doesn't last.......the hiding what lies beneath that facade, only lasts a little bit.... and it is OK with me....you have to be OK sitting in the truth......it is hurtful when you hear a lie about yourself though.....somebody creating an ugly narrative to hide their own ugly stuff....but again.....that isn't my business......I am confident in who I am....and the life I have built, and my actions speak louder than my words.....the quality of my life representing that truth......and I do not have the time or energy to spend in such futile nonsense.....some of the people that have betrayed me the deepest are people I have loved the most in this life......and well......I know.....that is an oof....and they are people that got a lot of the good stuff I offered too.....my purest and most loving intentions and generosity, and that can hurt even more......but the truth is people are going to do what they do....and much of it doesn't have to do with us....and we can only remain true to ourselves and live in our truth.....and talking about that with the women was powerful.....not in a way to bash anybody....or discount the fact that there are always two sides to every story, and the truth in between.....but in a way to honor that that further betrayal is a part of our stories for whatever reason.....and that despite what has happened to us all, a narrative lives out there that doesn't account for the truth of that......and I have found that karma arrives for those folks.....and I do not say that with a vengeful spirit.....wishing that on people.....but we all reap what we sow....that is the truth....I have seen it firsthand, and you cannot escape that invoice.......no matter what.......so the only energy I need to spend, and these women need to, is energy sowing beautiful seeds of healing and progress, and light and stepping above the muck and ick that can sometimes be found in places beyond our stories.....rising above it all.....and creating a way for beautiful things to find us in the aftermath of it all......and that can be hard sometimes when you want to shout the truth, but it isn't worth it.....it just isn't......the high road is hard but worth it......sinking and joining in the ugly stuff only brings you down too.....causing karma to be built on pettiness and conflict.......deeply breathing and standing in our truth is the way......I woke in the night and got to see the Strawberry FULL Moon shining in my window....it was so beautiful....a pink hue no doubt...and it is a reminder that beauty lies all around us, no matter the stories that live in others.....and evolution is the way.....past the wound, past the story, past the people that are fighting their own battles, past it all.....and forward......directly into the lives that are meant for us:)