6 months.......

The last 6 months have been full of change and evolution again.....and here is the thing....there have been some more challenging things behind the scenes, and I have been navigating them with clarity and peace and strength.....and an understanding that when you seek to move or go somewhere in life, and you are clear on what that looks like, and feel it calling to you, you can't bring old patterns with you. It just doesn't work.....like having a chain wrapped around your ankle when you want to run:).....and nothing is more important than how we feed our spirit.....NOTHING......to help us face whatever comes....and I have learned some valuable life lessons again in this span of time....and some that hurt my heart too.....but none of it has drug me down, because I finally know the way:) And the way is to dive into the things that bring me such joy.....and lift my energetic self:) my new workout is starting to pay off in a couple of weeks....shifting what I am doing to my muscles to allow for new growth....and maybe as I type this it is a metaphor for the emotional work I have done as of late too.....getting stronger again.....another layer coming forward.....strengthening my resolve in all the ways.....physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.....I guess what I mean is it seems fitting that I am wanting to chase another level of physical fitness because I have been chasing a new level of psychological and spiritual fitness too....challenging myself, all of the ways:) building myself up.....and I guess why I am writing about this notion again today, is because the power of soul feeding cannot be overstated, it just can't......it allows you to face ANYTHING.....with an ease, not exactly the word I want to use, but you get the idea....it is a game changer......I have written often that it has been shown to me that the emotional devastation I faced when my ex left won't happen again....no matter what story lies ahead....because I have realized the way to bolster my spirit, surrendering, accepting, and connecting to everything, attaching to nothing.....heartache not hitting the same as it once would.....and I say none of that with cockiness or without an understanding that tough life finds us all, and that I don't know what chapters lie ahead for me to walk through......I only say it to know that once your toolbox is brimming.....it helps you face the day, the week, the month....the year you are called to walk through......and I sometimes marvel at the amount of stuff I do to tend to my mood, and spirit these days.....and wonder actually how I survived my life before, while putting nearly zero effort into myself at all, seeing why I felt some of the ways I did, and suffered from the ailments I did, and felt so low vibing sometimes.....it was a result of being so far depleted in all of the ways....so making the effort to go sit beside the sea with my kids yesterday, was worth every bit of effort.....we hit some traffic coming down, and I internally stressed for a minute, thinking we should have left a little earlier, and second guessing my plan....but then I shut it down, and turned up the music and surrendered, realizing that the plan was perfect as it was.....no reason to pour negative stuff into it....and it was:).....my plan was to do a later afternoon excursion, and stay till the sun went down and well, we did just that:) The kids had a blast.....my girl adores the ocean, her little Pisces self wanting to crawl underneath the ocean and get into it:) She stands by it the ENTIRE time......like it is speaking to her:) And pouring that ocean air into our souls for hours is like supercharging our battery for the rest of life stuff:) Like plugging your cell phone in! And then Mads did her deep chatting most of the way home....she gets on these sometimes......insightful wisdom pouring from her little soul......and my boy fell asleep.....and I listened to my girl, and the tunes....and before we knew it we were home:) Sand in our hair.....smiles on our faces....and peace in our souls:) And I write about this often because I want to share how powerful this has been to my life....and help somebody else if I am able.........but also as a continued reminder to myself to never lose the way again.....never.....and intentionally chase beautiful experiences all of the way, and in doing so attract more my way! I think of ALL of the things the kids and I have done in the last 4 years and it is amazing to me and makes me so happy. And listening to my daughter share some of the spaces of her heart last night, the deep stuff.....made me realize that it has been worth the effort....healing them too, GRATEFUL to be right where we are, Amen:) xoxox Happy Saturday!