A closed door!

Yesterday I was given the gift of a closing door, one that needed to be closed.....it is a door that was open or ajar.....for a long time.....and then it opened fully for awhile, and I walked through it, and was glad to explore some of what was on the other side......but then it was made clear to me that it wasn't meant for me to stay on the other side of forever......even though at one time I had been so sure.....and when we are given the opportunity to close a door.....in a way that is final, it brings a level of closure that I think humans need. It will most definitely be a new era for me with this door finally closed....having learned a great deal from it....and closing it with no regrets....knowing fully it was my door once upon a time to walk through, for the time I did, and that that time is up......it is no longer aligned with my future, who I am, and the future places I am headed.....I know that so fully.....there is a sting that happens when things fall away, and some of the stark truth is left standing there and facing you....and I do wish that the end of it all, and the closing of the door held some kind of a different tone.....but we can only be responsible for our part of a story....and how we show up.....and as time passes, and the space between opens up I am hopeful the hue will change some.....but this morning I am just grateful for what happened yesterday to leave me seeing it more clearly, and allowing my illusion of some of it to fall away.....and some of the pain to fade amid the reality I was shown......and having the truth of it now make it easier to close the door fully and walk away......and maybe it should have been closed sooner? But then I know better:-) As I always say.....things happen in their time....not a minute before, or a minute too late, right on time....so I will take the lessons and memories with me.....adding them to the tapestry that is my life:) They were meant to be woven into that tapestry, that I am clear on....and it is a good reminder to connect to everything and attach to nothing.....because no matter what we believe, most things don't last forever.....they just don't.....and whatever does is a real treasure.....right?? If you think of the things that endure that is the truly special stuff.....a marriage that spans a couple's whole lives, what a gift:) a friend you have had since childhood that will remain a forever friend:)......a treasured and magical friendship that endures the test of time.....so few but special when things last forever:) And I suppose as I type this the attaching to the forever part is not for us to do.....instead being pleasantly surprised when forever unfolds or arrives......like there you are:) So my realist is having her say this morning....knowing very logically and rationally that this door was meant to close.....no longer remaining cracked open, as much as that is not what I wanted for so long......and realizing that means there are other doors waiting to be opened......or maybe a forever door waiting up ahead.....only time will tell that:) And leaning in extra on my faith this morning......which has become the coziest place of my life, supporting me always.....definitely a forever kinda thing for me now:) Happy Tuesday:)