And here we are......

The end of this week finds us in May......and I love May, but also brace myself for May each year.....it is my birthday season.....the 6th......and this year will find me turning 49.....like how on earth could that be lol:) I certainly do not feel that, and wasn't I just 30 a minute ago.....oh yea when I had my son, who will now be graduating from high school......yikes;-).....and May is a hi def month at work.....all the end of year things take hold.....the kids are ready to be done, and it is sort of like a hang on for dear life kinda vibe lol:) And last year this time I had an unpleasant experience around this time, and my body and mind are remembering some......so I am breathing through that too.....and May has hard spots too, because it is also the month we lost my sister.....so it is so many things.....and maybe this year more than ever.....so as I approach this month I am planning.....planning my survival, and planning on thriving through it all.....planning on taking one week on at a time....knowing I can do all things in the week in front of me......writing it all down....Gabe's prom will be this month.....He is so excited:) and I am still doing a bunch of coaching that I will weave in there.....and Oh Mother's Day too lol:) However I have found some strategy that helps me deeply.....I wrote awhile back about getting back into my meditation habit....and I have:) I have meditated EVERY day for the last couple of months, and it has been a game changer....I have done the same one the last 30 days.....and that has been huge....so I will be continuing to maintain that......healthy eating.....and I have mile goals on my treadmill now for this week......I just got back on it the last two weeks, and did a half a mile alongside my other workout, and this week is calling for me to up it.....I have loved having a treadmill again:) And the new goal will ask me to juggle my time management in the morning better......which is the plan:) but doing all of those things will help me carry the weight of May......oh and did I mention I have Gabe's guardianship hearing too....almost forgot lol:) So yea......lots of pieces.....and while there are parts of this month I want to savor.....I will be happy to find summer break knocking on my door....and catching my single mama hustle breath.......summer break is the most exquisite gift.....one that is never lost on me....time with my kids.....and a time to regroup, catch up, and get ready for the working mama hustle again.....we get out early June this year too, and get a nice long one:) So I am boarding this month with an understanding that it will hold a lot of energy.......emotions....pieces and everything in between.....and I am approaching it mindfully, knowing that I can do hard things.....and that I got this:) Just breathe............xoxo Happy Sunday:)