Backhanded blessings indeed......

So the longer I journey, with my eyes more open and having an awareness of it all.....I realize so completely that EVERYTHING we experience is for our good....even the excruciating stuff.....maybe especially that....and that often times our greatest blessings come to us with a backhand......sometimes a shocking and surprising one..........and I thought I may have coined or conjured this term, it came to me last night, but I did Google it this morning, and other people have said this too.......so while the idea emerged from my experience, it is a thing for a reason;-).......after my divorce I was drowning in the pain an suffering of it all.....and wondering why something so horrid had happened and how???? BUT THEN............the blessings started appearing and rapid firing into my life.......just a relentless stream of lessons, wisdom and clarity on the wings of the work of healing to a better and beautiful life......one I am still crazy about amid the new wound I am contending with .......and this time I am light years ahead of it:) KNOWING so deeply that I was served up another "backhanded blessing".......on a golden platter, one that seems so harsh and challenging if you just look at it in isolation.....But when you see it within the entire picture, the big one, you realize that most everything like this feels that way......at first.....like something dark was handed to you to hold.....and you wonder why?? Not having felt you asked for such a thing.......however I am clear that what has just occurred will also lead to infinite blessings moving forward.......I know that so completely.........that it was for my GREATER GOOD, that is how it works if you have the willingness to let go.....and move on.....and I definitely do.....I have shut the door, leaving the drama and dysfunction behind that door......not wishing ill will.....or harboring anger......just a healthy dose of disappointment, and emotions along those lines......and my eyes are forward.....not looking back......because I know now, again having been here before, that the way to those blessings is to alchemize the backhand! :) And that is my plan......Actually as it all unfolds, it is so humbling to think of how I have been spared so much additional suffering.....by being divinely diverted, more than once in my life.....once by somebody else's hands.....and once by my own.....but all from the powers that be, and both for my greater good.......So I have been exercising......meditating.....praying......listening to music.....sleeping well for the last two nights and getting work done at school.....and feeling pretty great all things considered......knowing so completely that the blessings I am speaking of are going to begin arriving soon, in fact they already have in a few places:)......and my family and children have decided to ride out the hurricane in NC.......hoping that it will go by quickly and they are set to come home Saturday....and I am trusting all of it.....knowing that worry and control are traps....not a place where I belong.......God brought my life to this exact moment in time, and the Universe is deeply supporting it also.....a perfect and harmonious balance in my mind......my life feels like it is RIGHT where it belongs as I sit here this morning, and in this moment.....and our actions, and what we put into the world is what leads us to where we go too, I believe that......reaping what we sow on repeat......my only goal is to do my very best to be a good person, a kind person, and put good things into the world, and help as many people as I can along the way, in any way that I can:) Tonight and tomorrow night that involves some coaching, and Monday I get to meet another group of 4th graders, and that feels just perfect:) Year 22 of teaching beginning:) Chasing the sun is the way y'all and there is plenty of sun, even after rain, if you just look up:) Enjoy the day:)