Banging on the WRONG door?????

I have come to recognize and revel in the ease of the doors in my life that open.....and the ones that don't.....knowing that the ease of all of that, is something I should pay attention to.....connecting to everything but attaching to nothing.....if a door opens it is mine.....if it never does than it isn't......simple really.....my girl got the student council spot she was going for in her class.....we were so excited last night:) and the other day, she told me one of the kids was bribing kids for the spot.....and she was nervous and upset.....and I said if it was her door it would be opened for her to walk through, and if not, then it isn't her door.....and she understood that too, and we both were excited it was HER door:) I had gone for that speaking spot too at an event this Friday that was raffled off, and it went to another lady biz owner.....and I am accepting the speaking spot is not mine, this time:) But know I was led to go to the event and will find the reason after I attend......:) Releasing the rest....and it feels so good.....but I was wondering about this last situation I released in March.....and wondering if I had banged down the wrong door.....there were many "near misses" in that story, that at the time seemed like it was a part of it.....but now as the beauty of hindsight and crisp and clean clarity has arrived....I am wondering if I was being kept from something.....in a real sense.....and because there were deep feelings involved, I was able to find a way.....and it is tough, because I do not believe in regret in a real sense, I believe every moment of my life has led me right where I belong....to THIS day......but this time.....based on some of the twists and turns, maybe I should have possibly heeded the warning sooner??? Maybe?? I am resisting the desire to regret the entire time I spent with him and be icked out by it all....based on all I know now.....wondering if the sunbeam magic part that I absolutely felt in those moments was real at all??....and worth it amid the rest of the story.....and maybe that is what happens when we bang down doors that are not ours.....not fully anyway....it is curious though, and makes me believe that while the door was difficult, it was still mine......because this odyssey of deeply examining self worth and shifting it so intensely FINALLY feels in line with the end of all of this......and being given a real life test, that I did pass with flying colors when being called to......but it does make you think,.....I do think, based on free will, that there could have been different versions of this story I left behind, for the both of us.......but there is no point in spending energy in the land of what ifs.....or regretting a thing.....that is true.....it is done, I learned many and deeply powerful lessons, about myself, about life, about relationships, about what I want moving forward, and what I don't........so much so that it makes me feel I am not even close to who I was even a year ago, or even 6 months ago within......at all, related to all these topics.....so that feels good:) So as I look ahead....I will continue to carry my philosophy about open doors.....and looking for doors to open....and if they do then I will know....and if they don't I will leave them alone:) Happy Saturday:)