Brings tears to my eyes

I was talking to a friend the other day about a situation that is likely going to happen soon, and it will be testing my willingness, and ability to transcend low level stuff, and stay in the place that I seek to hold myself in now.....and it brought to the surface the absolute inordinate amount of blessings I have received on this journey.....EVERY single step....like sometimes those gifts just materialized out of thin air.....and comparing what we have to others is the thief of joy.....the absolute fastest way to be unhappy.....instead the quickest way to being joyful, no matter what, is to look around and see our own blessings, and count them out loud and often.......and when I think of how the story could have gone instead of how it did, it makes me emotional......crying happy tears......for the freedom and light I have found.....I get so emotional thinking of it all.....because until you live through a thing that almost levels you, you cannot imagine how much fortitude it can take to regain traction, and how grateful you feel when you emerge from the darkness.....and find your life restored to a place that feels like your own again:) And most of us have been through those things right??.....really big things.....or things that feel really big.....and all of our pain and experience is valid....truly.....but focusing on the light is the way....if I would have stayed stuck in the "why me" mentality, even for a little bit, I would have missed it all......I would have missed the lifeboats, and the opportunities that have been sent my way to help heal my life, and walk in my mission......and wow that is powerful......to think why me in the other direction.....why me? Why was I freed of a marriage I didn't realize was slowly destroying me?....why was I given every single resource needed to survive the pain and suffering I endured? Having angels on earth sent my way.......amazing support people......an amazing therapist......every single thing I needed to do this life......restoring my health......my vitality....my faith... .....my spirit.......my passion......all of it.......and at the same time giving me the strength and healing to help my children do the same.....seeing them thriving and healthy in their own right now.......and I can go back and map each time a blessing appeared......and speaking of it makes me teary in all of the best ways, instantly.......that deep gratitude bubble that wells up, and you can feel so deeply inside of you.......and I always feel sorry for people that lack gratitude.....it must be so hard to live without that well of light at your disposal......really feeling that feeling deep inside of your soul......so as I anticipate this upcoming test of all of it.....I know I will do just fine.....because my focus has been....and will remain...... on my own blessings.....just feeling enormously grateful deep inside of my soul for all the blessings I have received....and continue to, each and every day.:) And those things are priceless indeed:)