So much of what people do or don't do has nothing to do with us.....it is easy to take stuff personally.....let our feelings get hurt, or let another's voice threaten to become our own....but the truth is, that is never the right path.....learning to....or seeking to learn to, not take much personally at all is the path to peace.....becausse much of what people say and do is a visual representation of their internal war.....and has very little to do with us at all.....and we truly think we have more power than we do in other's lives....thinking if we do this, then they will do this.....I was caught up in that for years......and that just isn't true.....and trying to love somebody that is at war with themeselves is not really possible.....because that war wins.....and no amount of love can combat it.....and I suppose on my quest to learn to love myself in a real and intentional sense, that has become more apparent.....quieting the skirmishes inside of me.....and being open to being loved again.....and working to become healthy enough to give and receive love when it arrives again....but I have loved men at war with themselves before in this life and it never ends well......you end up being a casualty of that war yourself.....even if it isn't their intent........and it happens in the world around us too right? People in our lives attempting to sweep us up into their storms.....and the key I believe now is to work to get to a place where you can take NOTHING personally.....nothing.....not easy right? Because ego is present, and our feelings.....but if we can do that, and do it for real, our power and peace is waiting on the other side......I have had lots of practice the last three years.....not letting what my ex does hurt me...and in the beginning his girlfriend too.......and there have been a few times I have fallen short, and fell victim to letting it get in....but overall when something arises I step over it, and disregard most of it.....knowing it is an external representaion of him not me......and whatever lies beneath his surface.....and I don't take much of it personally now at all.....but it has been a practice for me....an intentional place where I have had to dig deep, and do the work to make that so......it doesn't happen by accident.....and gosh if I think back to all that has happened over these three years and took it all to heart, I would not be where I am today......the weight of it crushing and destroying me.......I am so grateful that that became clear to me so early on.....to just let all that stuff go, and not get snared in it all, and allow myself to be subject to it....and I have taken that philosophy and have applied it to other parts of my life....I have had other people come after me in the aftermath of his leaving....and try and engage me in their wars....and I have just cut them off....blocking them out of my life, realizing that I cannot have that in my life any longer.....I don't believe that you can love somebody that is at war with themselves or the demons around them....because you always end up being the casualty of that war.....in the end.......always.....
jperuso
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