Dear _______............

My blog topic comes to me daily, normally based around my life....or a topic that is prominent, or needs some reexamination, but some entries beg to be written.....flowing effortlessly and insistently in my mind. All of the content forming and flowing out within minutes of my releasing it......and yesterday when I finished my other blog this entry materialized. It was right there, so much so that I typed it right then.....so I am guessing there is a reason for that:) Here it goes..........

Dear love,

My journey to you has been long and arduous......wrought with so much pain and suffering......lots of twists and turns.....betrayals.......sadness and doubt, but also smiles, magic, and passion too....I have always been lucky in love in a certain way....feeling it deeply, and intensely when I have stumbled upon it....and stumbling on it a few times......but its eventual state always proving to not be quite what I had thought.....but YOUR pull up ahead is palpable to me in this chapter and I can FEEL you out there.........And my theory is that YOU exist because I do:) My unique sometimes quirky self traveling in this life....not doubting that all of who I am will be embraced, and understood by you. Knowing that your light must be similar to mine....and that your desire to pour your light into others being as fierce as mine....I know you are kind.....taking my feelings into account....never wanting to hurt them, if you can help it.....caring about how I feel......and if you do hurt them, I know it will never be on purpose or with intent, as you are my safe place, and on the other side you will make it right, because we are also human too;-).....I know you will respect me fiercely and I you....and that I will feel that every day......I know you are passionate like me....about your life, and about loving others, in every way, and certainly in the way you love your person....and that that passion will be felt just by being around you.....I know you are honest....and seek transparency and truth in the ways I do.......I know that you are clever and funny....and we laugh until we cry as often as we can;) And your smile, it is my favorite, and the sound of that laugh.......Private jokes for days, and I hope you like memes?? ;-) Please:)....I know you are loyal......fiercely having my back as I have yours.....neither of us needing to look over our shoulders, because we know where the other is standing......I know that you are loving......and that love comes pouring from you in the ways I want it to, or maybe need it to, finally admitting to myself I may need some of that too, and I get to feel that from you every day, even on the tough ones......I know you are are smart, and honor intelligence......perhaps a little word wizardry of your own......I know that you love my children as your own.....honoring their journey alongside my own.....and are patient in their process in all of this.......and seeking to complete our union, not disrupt it.....being fiercely kind to them, even on their hard days too.......I know that you are a champion of my dreams.....clapping the loudest, and also providing a soft place to land in the shadows of my life.....and please know that whatever dream you have in your heart, I am here for it, and will be right there supporting yours too:) I know I can count on you, more than I have ever been able to count on a man in my life......I know that you are fiercely protective.....of our love, of our relationship, of me, and won't put yourself in situations that would jeopardize that, or open it up to being ruined, not leaving cracks for stuff to get in.......coming to me with anything you need to discuss.....fiercely protecting the magic we have built and our intimate spaces.....Speaking of intimacy I know you will honor intimacy in the ways I do....knowing that it is important and the foundation of any space worth standing in.....and that you will be brave enough and open enough to talk about the tough stuff and communicate in the ways we need to.......please share your hopes, dreams, fears, and insecurities with me and I won't love you less, and I know I will be able to share mine.......I know that you love your life as much as I do, and yourself, and you treat both as such.....and that when we join our lives....well;-) And most of all again, I know you exist because I do:) My strongest piece of evidence that what I seek exists.......and so when I finally meet you, knowing I walked through flames to find you......crawling through shards of glass but never doubting I would find you.....no matter the heartache I have endured in this life so far.....knowing that you were out there.....always.....and also knowing you would be worth the wait.....if you have children too, I will love them as my own....and seek to add light and love to their lives too......I am trusting that when the time is right, why there you will be:) .....Please know I am already so grateful for you, so grateful.....knowing that the wait was worth all of it.....and am already humbled by the gift you are to my life.....I look forward to getting to know all of you, and your song.....and your journey to me.....I hope you love music, well of course you will:) Another love we will share......catching shows as often as we are able.....Oh the adventures we will have traveling and living a life we are crazy about.......and faith.......so important, sharing a spiritual life with one another, built on faith and an understanding of so much of so much......I also promise to respect you and our differences, and to hear you, really hear you....and I know I will be heard and seen too....differences can be a place of massive growth for the both of us......a beautiful mix of shared interests and varied ones.....I really believe that, and so until then my love let's enjoy and revel in the journey to find one another.......every day.....not existing really living.....and I will be waiting, your soul knows where to find me;-)

xoxox

Love,

Me

P.S. I cannot wait to share this letter with you someday;-) Something tells me I will......Amen xoxox