Depends on where you look???

The world is FULL of helpers......do not let anything you read or watch change your mind about that:) And looking for the helpers is worth it! That saying being so true, and the one that touched down on Monday when I went for Gabe's guardianship.....our attorney was lovely.....so thoughtful and right on the money with helping Gabe understand it all, and being cognizant of what he needed......having us come into the courtroom ahead of time to make him feel more comfortable......he had many questions about the armed fellas in the courtroom.....and the hearing was emotional.......it was hard to go through that.....I cried during my testimony.....letting the awesome magnitude find me......and the deep connection I share with Gabe step forward.....and everybody in that room was touched....and they were all helpers in our story in that moment.....part of our journey directly....and I guess it got me thinking about all of that, and realizing how many helpers I have been sent in this life......impossible to count.....truly.....and the funny thing is that their impact is just as great whether they walked in a moment with me.....or in a chapter of my life......or are still with me now from the beginning of my story....the impact of it all is similar......and that is interesting right? The impact of another human that can be made in one moment of your life.....or many moments.....and it s always worth the effort to be mindful of helping others....and never underestimating the impact that makes.....never.....when Gabe was born I was wildly sleep deprived.....like torture chamber level sleep deprived.....and it was so challenging....and I will never forget when I took him to his first well baby visit after we had left the NICU.....we had stayed in the NICU for 5 weeks....and I thought somehow.....and naively....... that it would be easier when we came home....and it wasn't.....it was even more challenging......my ex had to work, or he didn't get paid, and I was on my own carting this little and fragile baby to all of his specialist appointments on repeat......and so here I was, holding him in his car seat, on a heart monitor.....because he would have apnea and stop breathing often....and he was only 4 pounds....and as I was leaving the appointment, I stepped on his monitor cord, and it disconnected and began to siren.....and I had him in one hand.....my bags in the other....and I quickly put it down, and plugged it back in....in the crowded waiting room.....and then a helper showed up.....the secretary peered out of the glass....and said "are you alright honey?" "Can I help?" And right there, in front of all the folks, I started crying.....letting a dam break.....one I had been holding for so long....and she walked around the desk, and out to where I was.....and wrapped her arms around me.....and that is what I needed in that moment....and it was beautiful......a helper through and through.......a moment I will never forget.......and I suppose Monday's hearing reminded me of that.....the people there holding space for me in a different way.....making a space for this next chapter of our lives.....and gosh it was a big weight lifted.....it was so much work to make happen and now in the rearview.....and I will never forget that secretary long ago.....taking a moment from the busyness of her day to share a moment with me....one where I felt like was drowning.....and so there are helpers......EVERYWHERE:) Just keep an eye out and be one as much as you are able:) It deeply matters:)