Energy vampires.......

I wrote yesterday about realizing some more about how my energy has shifted, as I see people respond to my energy these days.....and energy is SO important.....it is in part how I live my life now.....FEELING my way through it all....both through people and in other ways....realizing that energy is really all there is.....the frequencies of our bodies dictating our health, and the frequencies around us dictating the quality of our life......and I suppose at one point in time my energy didn't feel great to be around.....feeling overly anxious, and fearful, frustrated by so much.....which in turn makes a person cranky......and I have always done my best amid that to find the sun again, or the light.....being a sunnier human by nature.....and a light seeker........but I am certain my energy has been guilty of not feeling great at certain points along my journey.....all anxious and scattered.....and I had somebody mention the other day that I feel so grounded and peaceful to be around....and well I feel grounded and peaceful:).....and this weekend I went to my acupuncturist, there is a little blip cropping up, and I wanted to dig a little deeper, and he has a fancy machine that he puts you on, and one of the things it does is checks on how your energy is, and if your chakras are balanced....and the last two times I have been there they have been....and I was curious if it would still be the same! And it was! :)And part of it is speaking my truth endlessly, right in this blog, as a matter of fact......if I had bottled it up I would have gotten sick for sure.....I do my best to let the energy that comes flow freely, until it dissipates or alchemizes:) Because scientifically energy doesn't die.....it only transforms in some way.....and if we don't handle our energy than it works against us.....and for sure can make us sick.....but what about those energy vampires we encounter.....the people who drain our energy.....or seek to steal ours and use it as their own......using it as a life raft amid their murky seas......I have learned that energy is expensive.....the good kind anyway:) And the work we do to make it so is ours.....and not to be given away or allowed to be treated carelessly or selfishly.....I have been guilty many times in my life of thinking that my energy and my effort to be positive and happy could help balance another person's misery.....or eradicate it.....and that just isn't true.....we can help our people, and share some loving and sun when they need it....but the bulk of their energetic experience is their responsibility......I recently had a small conflict with a co worker....she was treating me poorly for awhile......often, and In a way that felt disrespectful....she is much younger than I.... and for the most part I could step above it, my ego not getting called to the party, but I have been nothing but respectful of her, and one day it came to a head....and we ended up having a chat about it after that was a good one....and her energy is unlike mine....she is subject to anger and frustration often, and some anxious stuff....and she told me that my positivity and happy energy makes her uncomfortable....and she doesn't know what to do with it.....and I felt that was powerful....and I appreciated her being able to articulate that, because negative energy makes me uncomfortable....so it makes sense that it would be the same in reverse.....and sometimes having sunny personality has the opposite effect on people and causes them to lash out at you......or makes them uncomfortable, because your energy serves as a mirror, to mirror back whatever is in within them.....or a perceived lack, or so much of so much......and these days I fully trust that my energy will attract what is meant for me....and if somebody else's energy is pulling at mine to change it, or bring it down, I am not in the right spot:) I do a lot of work to nurture the quality of my mood, and energy in my day to day.....like my own little garden....tending to it often:) Feeling like my children deserve a mother that is joyful and not resentful......:) One that dances and sings, and doesn't raise her voice to often;-) I mean we are all human after all! But you get the idea! Your energy and mine are our responsibility period.....and once upon a time I did not realize that so deeply.....letting people ride my energy for free, and realizing that when I got cranky that I wasn't tending to that.....letting something get in.....or fester.....so Journaling helps......sunlight helps.....fresh air helps.......nature helps......meditation helps.....music helps.......exercise helps.......deep breathing helps......good food.....rest......water.......chasing magic and joy is paramount, and repeat........don't let those vampires in y'all! Your energy is worth it:) xoxo