FAKE it till you MAKE it....

This saying and practice sometimes gets a bad rap.....but it is absolutely the most important thing a person should do if they don't know what to do next.....I have come to believe that, show up as the person they want to be, maybe the person they know they need to be.....and then repeat.........and I have done my best to write my blog as honestly as I have been able to.....depicting things as I perceive them.....representing myself as honestly as I can, and doing my best to examine things from lots of angles and crevices.....and I have said the greatest power I have found in this blog is to HEAR myself daily, like really hear myself, or have it resonate with a certain person, on a certain day, in a timely manner, and also as my living prayer.....many of the things I have written about and wished for....or cast a vision for have appeared in my experience and life:) Coming true! Cool right? :)Words are powerful.....and I feel like this blog has been even more proof of that for me......and nobody wants anybody to be hypocritical.......saying one thing than doing another right? And I have done my very best not to do that, doing my best to be true to myself and my words fully....but sometimes we fall short of our own expectations for ourselves right??? Holding an expectation for something, and then finding the struggle to meet it.....but it doesn't make the setting of the bar any less important....proceeding AS IF.......and there have been certain walks along this journey that I have wanted to take alongside my newfound beliefs, that have taken time for me to meet them in real time, if that make sense.....like setting a bar for myself, or writing something here.....and falling short some, and then going right back into it.....continuing to circle round, till I meet my expectations, and words for myself there....and working so hard to meet it, and holding myself to a standard......and having that be the case is not a failure.....and it is not being dishonest.....it is being human.....sometimes as humans we need to "fake it till we make it".....proceed AS IF.....and I have done that over and over in this story with great results:) I tell the story often of the book I read soon after he left.....and a candid woman, one who had walked through what I did, expressing that this journey requires training like a warrior for the process of divorce, likening it to a marathon not a sprint....and I took that one sentence and clung onto it for dear life.....telling myself over and over that I was a warrior.....not needing another soul to believe it but me....and there it is.....did I feel like a warrior early on?? No......I was scared.....sad....in excruciating pain....but it all started with a small flame.....a little flicker of belief that helped me move through the rest......and in the space of "faking it".......I made it:) I am currently examining old belief structures within me.....and knowing that the way to the other side is to fake it till I make it....show up as HER.....the HER I believe myself to be, or at least am headed toward.....the one I want to meet down the road.....the gal that doesn't want me to give up, or give in....or sell her short....the one that is somewhere sharing her story.....the one where she knows her worth......and doesn't allow anything to take away from that....the one where she grows beyond old stories that have lived inside of her most of her life, the one where she chooses growth over comfort......knowing the time has come for that.....the time she got so uncomfortable but dug in, because of what she was needing in her life, and it was THAT important.....and the woman who had to fake it till she made it over and over.....being true to her spirit and heart....and sometimes we need to do that and more.....I really believe that....and it is perhaps the most honest thing we can do....impersonate our future self:) The one we wish for.....and in that space it helps us connect to our future self:) So today I just wanted to remind you to "fake it till you make it" with abandon:) As many times as you need to, to keep circling round to that goal you want for yourself, or that growth you know you need......and when you touchdown in those moments where you feel you have made it...well....that is everything:) I am rooting for you, I really am:)