Healing......

I feel like the word "healing" is a buzz word these days....and as I got up this morning I was thinking that perhaps healing is needed more than ever in this world....and I certainly know a circle of healers in this area......and everybody is grinding and hustling and doing their thing....and trying to help other humans heal from the things that have wounded them! Changing the world one heart, one soul, one action at a time.......And I have written about my healing journey every day for nearly 5 years, kind of hard to believe right?? It is for me....but really I have never written about what healing looks or feels like....like the actual process of it.....it has been a painful process......excruciating at some points.....and the sad thing is this.....I know people that have chosen not to do the work of healing.....thinking it is "easier" to not face their pain....and from where I sit, the quality of their life, and the running from it, and numbing of it, doesn't look "easier," and has not brought light and peace to their doorstep......just chaos and mess:( There really is no way around....just THROUGH.....and directly after the wound....there is that searing kinda pain....the kind that if you bump it or touch it, it sends shockwaves through your body.....and that is the worst part....in my opinion.....but then when the dust settles, and you can see straight and function again, finally catching your breath, there is the mess to clean up.....quite literally.....and as the pieces lie there you have a choice.....to try and put them back together the way they have always been.....which let's be honest.....is not possible.......OR craft them, and piece them together in a different way....being open to the evolution of spirit....and surrender to the unraveling, and to the reconstruction so fully that you are willing to become a new person, in every sense of the word.....and maybe we don't talk about the discomfort we feel as we heal.....the in between.....the loneliness.....the quiet moments....the fact that it is endless....that it feels like sometimes you just don't want to do it anymore....you just want to feel whole....or maybe live another story that doesn't require so much energy.....but as is with all things....there is a flip side....there is such light and beauty on the other side of real healing....like the break of day and a magnificent sunrise.....so spectacular you can almost not believe what your eyes are seeing.....like that:) And well.....that is a payoff for the muck......for the bravery that you showed in owning your walk.....and the other huge piece.....the thing I have taken and run with is this.....it is NOBODY's business how YOU choose to heal.....least of all those that wounded you......nobody gets to judge or decide how you choose to put those pieces back together, and you owe nobody an explanation......as I sit here this morning....nearly 5 years later....with other wounds that have found me within those years.....I can honestly say there is nothing I would have changed. Every decision I have made to heal myself has been worth it....and I would do it again and again.....my healing is not only a gift to my children....they deserve it so fully.....a whole and happy mama.....but also a gift to me.....because I deserve it.....so sometimes it looks and feels like nothing is happening....until it is:) If you are struggling or in need of some healing....you know where to find me....reach out, I am here:) YOU ARE WORTH the love you give to others, I promise:) xoxo