Hey, I love you.......

I did my coaching gig at the doctor's office I do coaching for last night.....it is such a sweet and sunny spot in my life......full of so much light......watching people change, and WIN is the best! And I have built relationships with all of them, and I love seeing them there each month, and working and learning more from Dr. Pathak.......last night was exercise as a topic....my favorite week of the rotation due to my knowing so deeply that it is the single most powerful thing that has changed my life! In every way, and continues to.....and my only regret on any given day, was that I did not start sooner......and I am offering a discount to the ladies in that program for my fitness series.....and I am excited with wherever the journey takes us all....but as I was sharing some of my story....and connecting with the group, and it all hit me again......as it often does through my business, that THE WAY forever and ever is to love YOU BETTER......I learned, quite by accident, to turn all of the ugliness and betrayal and horror I have been handed, and translate it into loving ME:) better, and as more as time has gone on by, better and better......and Hey me, I LOVE YOU:) I really do.....and we think we need to keep waging war with ourselves, and we think we need to wait UNTIL to love ourselves better......but WHAT IF, we could LOVE US now, in whatever form we are in....I know when I did not feel so good in my skin, the narrative I spoke to myself within was unkind......and gosh that is hard right? Just a constant barrage of berating....and that narrative and inner critic chatter kept me stuck for sure.....wasn't going to move me where I needed to be.....but then my head got clearer.....and I started to accept me for me.....after my life imploded......but as I stand before these patients and see them seizing their health.....which by the way, in my opinion is the most noble endeavor, I see them seeking to love themselves better too.....and that is THE WAY, I am convinced of it....you might not be where you want to be YET.......and have some discontent surrounding some parts of your life....but WHAT IF, WHAT IF, you could look in the mirror, as you are......and say Hey, I love you:) I accept you as you are......I know you are trying your best......and I know that you are worthy in this moment.......I have mentioned these pictures I have a few times....when my ex started his affair I was a size 8 and feeling pretty good.....but when I found out about what was going on, and lived in that space for the two years after until he left, I had put on some weight under the stress.....and I felt horrible.....and I could not get one pound to budge.....no matter my effort....the cortisol raging in my body, my mind a dumpster fire.....and I tried to take pictures, to motivate me....in my underwear and a tank top....and my belly bulging in ways that made me feel like a failure....and when I looked in the mirror I was so unkind to her....thinking I could not love her in that state....and feeling the weight of the mess of my life quite literally.....and I can tell you that you cannot change your body, till you change your mind......they are so connected....and I regret giving her such a hard time, and not loving her and supporting where she was in that moment.....so each time I stand before this group, and do my best to help and inspire, I remember that woman....the one that I wasn't as kind as I should have been to....the one I didn't love in the ways I should have.....But the one that deserved it, she really did, she deserved my love, and if you are reading this you do too:) Happy Thursday:)