How dare you......

I have had that thought, more than once in the last few years.......just spinning in the horror of how things can go sometimes, and who people can be, like for real, yikes......it is shocking really.....not who they pretend to be, that is true......and I haven't given the "how dare you" speech to the people that have deserved it.....because it will fall on deaf ears.....and they are who they are......and I won't waste my energy or lower myself and rattle my peace.......and their awareness will find them, if it is meant to, and when the time is right.....and you can't go around doing horrid and deceptive stuff ,and expect to live a blessed life.....I know for a fact that it doesn't work like that....but that is not why I am writing about this this morning....I have explored the karmic tie piece of all of this before.....and my own hurt inside of places I thought I was safe.....only to find I wasn't.......but this morning is about my accountability in it.....I have never felt, nor portrayed, I hope:), that I am a "victim".....I do not resonate with that at all, I am not a victim to anything that has happened to me in this life.....and I own allowing myself to be taken advantage of too, in the situations I have in my mind.....and there have been a few......my desire to believe, to keep extending grace, to being understanding, kind, generous, thinking that myself and the other people would find balance there......all of it lending itself to finding myself in those "how dare you" places.....and I guess I feel confused, or frustrated some, and that fact.....Because I believe, deeply through my faith, that I am supposed to extend those things to others, whether they "deserve" it or not, which what do any of us deserve anyway?.....and I am supposed to extend it fully and completely, and with all of my heart.....but YET.......so as my new era is stretching out again.....and I am stepping into it, a little wiser, fiercer even lol;-) ......I am trying to figure out what this NEW and evolved woman, in this new era looks like.....and acts like boundary wise.....not allowing her kindness, and generosity to be exploited......examining what next level boundaries look and feel like.....or maybe what they should look and feel like, if that makes sense......the "how dare you" conversations are fun to have in my head.....they are poignant and powerful, mic drop lol:), just so you know, in case you were wondering;-) But futile, in every way......And I have found ways to get my feelings out, through other means........not letting them settle and poison my spirit.....so I am good:) And truthfully I believe that those people KNOW.....and if they don't already, they will......life will show them all they need to know.......so I suppose this morning I am pondering more balance as I travel forward.....stronger boundaries.......while still being me:) Because the human condition is messy, flawed, challenging, complicated, and so much more......and deserves grace, love, and patience poured all over it too........and perhaps as I type that, the consciousness is enough for me......I don't have to DO anything......just be aware of it is all......eyes open.....but heart open too:) Happy Sunday:)