I really do forgive them......

There is a list of folks in this life that have betrayed or wronged me pretty significantly....in different ways, and for different reasons, reasons I may never fully understand.....and there is a camp of folks that think I should still hold that fire and venom for them.....and that sort of thing doesn't live within me.....it just doesn't......no vengeance, no payback, no retribution.....just a walk on, and not giving access to my peace any longer....and I am getting better at spotting that, as I have said.....but some people believe that their power lies in the hanging on.....or the holding of the grudge....that grudge is heavy...just put that shit down, would you, please! ;-) And hanging on, or hating on, or any of it just gives your power away.....I have touched on forgiveness many times in my blog....exploring it so completely......it is not an easy feat to give it to people that haven't expressed the remorse you are looking for......my daughter is navigating that now, with a girl she thought was her friend....and is seeking her to apologize in a way that can settle her soul.......and I am not sure that will happen.....and I have to say that when somebody denies you the apology you deserve, and you really do....make no mistake about that piece.....I promise you that you DO deserve somebody to take the time to express their remorse for what they did to you......but only if they mean it....and feel it....and sometimes their remorse speaks in other ways.....not in Hallmark conversations.....but in the way their life looks.....And maybe they don't care at all....that is possible....but I tend to know human nature enough to know that that is normally not the case.....people know what they do. Their shame and guilt living in how their soul looks from the outside.......you can see it in them. And forgiveness, the real kind, the kind that comes when you are ready too, is for YOU.....I truly believe with all my rose colored stuff in tow, that most humans do not seek to harm others exquisitely....they really don't.....and their pain inside bleeds on others....no doubt.....but waiting on an apology that may or may never come is foolish.....and maybe that is my latest "AHA" surrounding this topic.....the piece of self worth that says that my worth matters more than waiting on or lowering myself to want an apology from anybody.....And my effort lies in my willingness to not spew hateful things, or wish any ill will on any of them at all.....life has a way of sorting it all out, and people get what they earn in this life, I have seen it time and time again.....and my faith tells me that so completely....and the other piece I feel so completely is that every time that happens to us....when somebody does that, we get set FREE.....it isn't a wrongdoing, or a punishment, or a transgression, it is a GIFT....showing us that we are trying to stay in places where we no longer belong.....and if we are open to learning what lies on the other side....well.....that is the treasure:).....so if somebody asks me if I forgive THEM.....the answer is yes.......my peace is way more important than any of it....and you cannot have anger and resentment, and peace at the same time.....it doesn't work....and I have become so peaceful that it is something that courses through every part of me now....not able to get rattled by anybody....it is mine:) So if you are reading this, try and forgive.....I know it is hard....but it is a gift you are giving you too.....You are worth the peace it brings, Amen:) Have a great day!