I trust YOU!......

What makes a person trustworthy??.....I am not sure anymore.....I used to think it was actions aligned with words....and I was proven that even deception can live there too....or the amount of time you spend with a person, to see their actions stack up......and I find it strange with all I have been through in terms of lying and betrayal, that I am not fearful of trusting folks.....knowing now that my intuition has joined the party, and will alert me when things go sideways......but sometimes I feel a little jaded about the ability to find somebody that is trustworthy.....having had my trust abused so often and so completely.....and I say this this morning because a random connection found me Tuesday.....I have spoken before about my lack of love for online dating lol:) And I almost deleted it again, and then I didn't......and I connected with somebody, I will call him S for now.....and we had lovely text conversation last night.....and I am intrigued....nothing ventured nothing gained....what was interesting about it all was that I was supposed to go to that speed dating event, that I had mentioned awhile back on Saturday, and it was cancelled yesterday morning....and I was kind of bummed....but mostly just trusting that it wasn't my door.....I love that new part of me....not letting derailed anything jangle my cage....just knowing that literally EVERYTHING is always working out for me.....I believe that SO deeply now it is in my veins......so when this connection happened it took me by surprise.....because I have also said often, the connection piece doesn't happen often....I could be judgey and say that there is a laziness that has invaded the dating world.....causing people that have connected on the site to not even message each other then because they feel kinda apathetic.....I know for me that has been true, so I am judging me too lol:)....and I tend to wait until the fella reaches out anyway after a match is made.....the first test so to speak;-) so that is what I did here, and he actually reached out first....and as we began conversing there were a few things I was wondering about, like would this work, and each thing showed me that yes it was worthwhile to keep chatting....more tests.......and I think the thing that strikes me initially right now is how different I feel within this....than I ever have. I cannot fully articulate it.....but I for sure just shed another piece of me that I used to carry into dating situations......I feel a little like I am relearning myself if that makes sense?? I have no idea where this is headed.....it could be short lived, some texting and then an awareness that this isn't our door....and that is fine too.....or we could become great friends, or___________ hard to say.....he doesn't live too far, so that piece is nice too....but my point in writing about it this soon, when I have no idea about where any of it will go, is because I can feel that the trust piece will be a thing, not prohibitive but a place to grow.....I had spent SOOOO much time trying to build trust in my last situation, YEARS, only to be so deeply deceived....so.....maybe it isn't time that builds trust.....maybe it is in action, or content of a person's character.......or a newfound instinct I will have in tow, as I feel my way through this.....He definitely seems different than any man I have attracted to date.....and I trust myself now........to know.....to feel.....to be aware in a way I have never been......and I also trust the doors that open and close for me......fully......to be continued! Happy Thanksgiving:)