We had SO much fun last night....dancing the night away, the music was awesome....and the crowd was great......Robin's son was kind enough to chauffeur us so we could freely live our best lives...;-) And I ran into people I had known in my old life.....ones that have supported my journey......and they were so complimentary about it all...about feeling what I am trying to do....being inspired by my journey.....one of the girls telling me how much she enjoys seeing life through my eyes on social media...reading all of my stuff.....and feeling inspired by iy.....and just wow....what a compliment.....it isn't necessary anymore for people to "get" me.....but it sure is special when it happens:) Stokes my flames of resolve....and keeps me knowing that the effort I put in matters.....and there were comments about my glowing....and how happy I looked.....and what I realized, and maybe have some all along, is that that glow is due to the love I now feel for me, and the care I give the woman I have become.....falling in love causes us to glow....for sure.... if it is right.....but it is now just me.....so the glow people always comment on, comes from within......nobody around to give it credit to;-) and I am so hoping I get to keep the glow I feel inside of me now, and others see it for the rest of my days...:) Realizing how to keep it....by taking care of and loving on me....and I was super lucky last night to bear witness to a couple that was in their 70s....maybe even 80.....and they were crazy about the music....and each other.....just hugging and holding each other.....and dancing....and the husband was looking so adoringly at his wife, it was just powerful to watch....they were in front of us, and I was so grateful I got to see it....certainly a goal for love....you could tell they had loved each other for a long time, through many things....and they were right there with one another....making an effort to come out to a noisy venue, and share a common love of funky blues and jazz and live music.....I couldn't stop watching them from time to time...feeling almost guilty for infringing on their privacy, because for them there was nobody else in the room....truly present, and RIGHT there with each other....and gosh I hope I get to experience that kind of love at some point....a love that endures, and rides with me till little old lady status;-).....finding myself standing and watching live music with somebody that feels the same about it, and adores me, like I adore them:) Goals.....but for now I am content....more than content, to provide the glow of love to myself....and I am still thrilled people notice it....Robin ran into an old friend, and he was commenting on it too....Robin was telling him some of my story, and he was shocked that I looked so happy and glowing lol:) and said it to me and found it amazing....but more importantly than how it looks, is truly how it feels....I really feel that way inside....happy, alive, and content, in a way that I have never known....love was everywhere last night.....so many loving fun people in one place.....lots of great couples and singles.....sharing their love of music, and each other, and it was beautiful to be a part of:) Enjoy the day! Happy Sunday:)
jperuso
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