Invisible chains.......

This chapter has been about a lot for me....but maybe most of all it has been about breaking free of all of the invisible chains I have lived in.......For a long time......I lived wrapped in chains called worry...... and anxiety, chains that held other people's opinions and thoughts, chains that kept me from ever fully feeling like me....and now I finally do....and there is a lot of uncertainty in my life right now, if one would look at it from an outside perspective......but I have learned to be certain in that uncertainty.....having watched, very carefully, things unfold naturally, and as they should.....and trusting that fully and completely.......so as the design of the kitchen unfolded....I was originally going to opt for a white farm sink.....because the backsplash was supposed to be white....the tile left here by my ex......and then I was drawn to copper, and found one that was only a little more than the white one in the grand scheme....and well it seemed worth it to get the sink I really wanted and I did:).....and as it turns out now, the white one would never have worked in here now as the design has evolved.....and THAT is what I am talking about, and what resonates so deeply for me now.....we need to not fight change and evolution.....because when we are called to embrace it, it is always leading us right where we belong....even when it feels awful and difficult at the time........and being my fixed Taurean self for so long had me finding change challenging....and wanting everything to stay the same forever....and while that part of me runs deep and wide.....it is no longer a chain.....it is something that I have challenged in myself.....something that was not serving me anymore and I embrace change now fully and trust the way things unfold......knowing that it all works out beautifully in the end....and it does:) Now that is a tiny and insignificant example perhaps in the grand scheme of it all.....there are more powerful ways this shows up in my life.....but I think in that example is the essence of what I am talking about......and we allow for more joy and pleasure when we don't attach our own beliefs about how things should be, and just accept it as it is....and trust where it is leading.....so now the kitchen is heading into the home stretch and I am watching all the pieces that manifested by magic really, fall into place in the most beautiful ways....and I am proud of embracing the growth that allowed for that to happen......because had I been fighting it....the experience would have been completely different.....and so I am summoning patience, and the gifts of broken chains to get through the final leg of this renovation....knowing that the end result will be absolute perfection.....in every way:) And a daily reminder of the things I have learned along the way and the chains I am no longer burdened by:) Happy Friday:)