It is finally GONE!

My favorite season is the holiday season.....and this year in January will be the 5th anniversary of his leaving, and the beginning of my NEW life........And up until now the holiday season had a cloud hanging over it some.....because it was also the time of year I uncovered his infidelity, more than once.....so the body keeps score, and remembers.....and quite honestly, since Covid the holidays have felt strange.....and then last year I had my kitchen torn up....being able to put up only one tree....and I was doing some traveling with my recent ex, however that fact doesn't feel as if the season has any tainted feel to it:) It feels like I can step into it fully.....and freely.....with both feet, and FULL JOY, turned all of the way up! And I may decorate fully, soon....... because...... well why not:) Yesterday we went to church....and then hiked at Columcile Park, it is so beautiful there, and then hit Home Goods......we are planning a red and green tree for the kitchen this year to add to the mix......I do a whimsical rainbow and unicorn tree for my workout room, and got myself a rainbow tree this year to add to the theme.....representing a rainbow after the storm:)......my dining room has an elegant and refined tree......my living room is our family tree.....all the ornaments having meaning......I have one in my bedroom......and decorate it to match my decor.....my daughter has one in her room.....and now we will have a big one in the new kitchen! Traditional red and green, plaid all of it.....and I also decided to grab a few new things.....opting to finally clean out some of my old decorations.....it is time.....I have written before about my propensity to hang onto things.....for too long....not freeing myself of it....and just letting it go....and I did some of that yesterday when we got home....donating it to a thrift store where my mom volunteers.....and so as I plot, and plan the decorating, this morning it hit me.....it is GONE....that icky feeling that laid all over the holiday season in the past few years has evaporated......leaving room for all of the gifts of the season! And I cannot wait.....I am so excited to begin.....and I also have a plan to have some old fashioned holiday soirees this year too.....back to all of the things I love so much.....and each year for the last few years, I would blog about that feeling that hung over the holiday....and wondering if it would ever go away.....and to be sitting here this morning feeling like it has, well that feels like something:) It is the most WONDERFUL time of the year indeed:) And what's even more special to me, my daughter agrees.....she feels the exact same way, stating clearly that she feels like Home Goods is the best store there is, and well.......and I could not agree more;-) Let the holiday season commence:) Happy Monday!