Let's get personal.......

So my blog has been going for a 4.5 years now......and it began as a way to chronicle my journey in real time through my divorce......writing having always been an outlet I have turned to.....forever having a wild love affair with language......and I believe that THIS blog was divinely placed in my life.....the inclination to do it, and to start it.....coming out of the ethers and into existence.....and my discipline of getting up each day and writing has healed me, and saved me in ways that maybe I do not even fully understand yet.....or maybe never will....but there is some power that lies in waking and writing.....when you are in your morning state of consciousness......and the therapeutic benefits have been endless for me......not holding stuff in....letting it breathe.....letting it make better sense as the words and letters jump from my keyboard.......cleansing my mind and spirit, and keeping my mind healthier........and it has been powerful......and in certain places, and at certain times it has been said that my blog has "painted" some other parties in this story in a unflattering light.....and how dare I do such a thing......and here is what I will say to that......I have NEVER written anything that is untrue.......I have done my very best to write about some things in a way that has protected the parties too....or been as respectful of certain aspects of the story.....but the interesting thing about that take on it, is that makes me responsible to hide the things that go on......or responsible for what others do......and if the story shifted and great things began to happen in the dynamic, "flattering" things then I would certainly write about that too......I have written it as I see it.....and getting personal and real makes others uncomfortable.....and I get that......I no longer feel uncomfortable chronicling my story because I have seen the impact.....I have received the messages, and the support from the people that need somebody to say the words......the ones they too hold close to their hearts....and have had trouble saying.......and I have taken heat for it.....no question....but it matters not.....this is MY story....being told with honesty and integrity, and in a delicate way.....for the healing benefits I have received, and to attempt to help others find healing and themselves in my story too.....the truth is divorce is a marathon not a sprint.....just like I read early on in that book.....all these years later I am still running.....still keeping up with what comes.....doing my best to feed my strength in healthy ways to endure in the story.....remaining healthy and happy....so I write the story as it comes....period.....if anybody is interested in having it be a more flattering or upbeat story then that is within their power.....we are all responsible for our own actions....or inactions....and I have no idea how long my blog will have life.....I suppose I will know when it doesn't serve its purpose any longer......but for now it is one of the most important things I do in this journey......and if I could go back in time.......I would do it again and again....no regrets........Have a great day:)