My own "WIN" time......

We do a WIN period in school......and it stands for "What I Need".....and yesterday I had to leave work a half a day......was having some stomach issues, had them in the morning but had tried to go to work.....and I woke up this morning still not feeling well enough to go to work.....and I had to call off....and if you are a teacher you can relate to how challenging that is....so many moving pieces.....and I struggle with it.....I very rarely take a day for me.....they normally have to do with my kids etc....and I struggle with not pushing through....but today found me realizing that I had to take care of me today.....an intuitive sense that "pushing" myself would be the wrong choice today and would set me back further....and giving myself my own WIN time.....they called a two hour delay for my own kids....and after I put in my sick day early and did sub plans, and notified all of my people.....I went back to sleep for a little bit....opting even to write this blog later.....and it may not seem like much.....but for me it is progress......last night I allowed my daughter to make me some tea....I had put dinner in the crockpot, and the smell was making me feel sicker.....but I was glad I had it for them to eat....and I just rested and went to bed early.....I am hopeful tomorrow morning will find me back to where I need to be......but as I think of it all this morning....this journey has been one of discovering "what I need" on repeat......and learning to give to myself in that way.....permission to rest....and just be.....I am an active human, and I enjoy being active, I used to equate busyness with some kind of success in some way....and busyness is not the same as action, and I am guessing now I was running from my mind and all of the rest.....I even told one of my friends a long time ago that being busy was good for me....but that really isn't true.....she and I laugh about it now, and while I still like to be active and grind.....I now grant myself permission to rest when the need arises.......and just be.....finding that balance, when need be.....I am also rarely not feeling well, so that is kind of a thing too.....I don't like it, and the last two previous school years I did not get sick at all.....I think one minor cold, and this one only two minor things.....but my stomach bothered me a little bit ago, Gabe and I both....think we ate bad lettuce........but this time is definitely a touch of something....and well as a teacher that doesn't work in the classroom.....so today I have decided I am not making any excuses or apologies about needing to take care of me.....I have learned to do that so much better.....my kids will be going to school.......I will allow myself the rest and repair I need, no workout, which is hard for me lol:) And trust that I will be back at it tomorrow.......don't forget to give yourself some 'WIN" time too:) Happy St. Patty's Day!