Never giving it back!

I realize that I am hardwired some for discipline, and routine, and creature of habit stuff, that helps all my healthy habits IMMENSELY, I get that fully, especially the more I learn......however being wired like this still hasn't always gotten me to the places I have wanted to be.....the level of discipline I experience now is a new level than I have ever had in my life......but here are some things that I think apply to everybody.....I was thinking the other day about how vibrant, and vital, and healthy I continue to feel, I was reminded by happy singing in my car on the way to work:) and I always think how it is so important as I navigate life stuff......keeping myself buoyant......and I have mentioned before being "addicted" to the way I am feeling these days.....and how good, feeling good feels, especially never forgetting the years of my life that I did not feel good.......but the other day a new piece came to find me.....I am not waiting on anything to arrive anymore to enjoy the now......do I have plans for my future YES! BIG dreams YES! DESIRES in my heart and soul, YES! But all of those things do not impact my ability to enjoy the here and now so completely....not feeling like I am waiting on anything.....and I believe now, that I can choose to feel the way I do, healthy, young, and vital all of my life, if I do the work of tending to my mind, body, and spirit, no matter what is written on my future pages:) We can decide how we set ourselves up for success, we do have that power.....and the shift is the BELIEF......when I began to meditate on things.....my brain was busy.....like all of these things buzzing around.....distracting me from the task at hand....but I stuck to it.....and after doing it now for awhile super consistently....I can really connect to the words that are being said as they guide me, but more importantly, I can FEEL it......I can feel this enormous sense of peace.....and light and joy.....and that is so powerful......I used to try to do all of these things from a place of fear, or maybe desperation even to improve my life......in a panic even.....and now I realize so completely that that will never work......you have to do the work of revamping your whole life, and finding peace and love and joy for yourself, before you can move toward the manifestations of your dreams.....being able to really FEEL it......and be in alignment with your desires authentically.....not in a false sense......I often smile when I meditate now:), because I am connected to it in such a real way......so I guess this morning just finds me so damn grateful, that after all of the darkness and hardships I have endured in this life.....that I get to sit here, in the early morning hours......listening to my music, sipping my coffee, and writing, and getting to LIVE THIS LIFE......and FEEL THIS WAY....never wanting to give it back......protecting it like the precious gift it is, and continuing to elevate it in every way! Intentionally and consistently........This weekend, on Sunday, I have a fun soul stirring adventure, a new place to hike on tap for the kids and I, we can't wait:) Happy Friday y'all:)