Not sure where to begin.....

So much swirling as of late.......and this blog is my way to unearth the layers.....like an onion......peeling back the things that are being asked to be looked at.....and if you are watching the world, you might feel like there are so many layers afoot at the moment.....and they coined last year, saying it is the year of the snake......the shedding of our skin.....and starting February 17th at the mark of the lunar new year.....the energy will shift into the year of the fire horse, which just based on names sounds way better lol:).....and those terms are coined by I don't even know who....and that really doesn't matter.....what I think when I see that, or read it, or maybe even feel it, is that it resonates fully.....I most definitely shed my skin this past year, perhaps more than I have in any of the years I have walked through....and I feel like right now that skin is tender.....it is a little raw, like when you pick a scab you should have left alone.....it not being quite ready to come off........and anytime I feel it all building up.....things pulling at different parts of me, and my life, I am reminded that the things that happen to us, are happening FOR us......in ways we don't understand.....and I am not sure what I would do without knowing that so completely, it is my rock, and my anchor in this life, and I believe things need to break down before they can be rebuilt......and perhaps that is part of what is happening on the world's stage.....an enormous, and horrifying tearing down of the old, and when the pieces get rebuilt they will be rebuilt in a much better way.....a way that honors humanity, and love and people.....that is all I can think of and what I choose to hold onto.....that light is indeed more powerful than darkness.......and I did the dating thang last night....and I had some really fun conversations, and ultimately there wasn't anybody there that resonated with me, or me them....but it was a place to begin! To put myself in uncomfortable spots with the intention of growing....I survived chit chat.....it didn't kill me lol:) And in fact it was the easiest chit chatting I have ever done.....so there was that too......and nothing grows in our comfort zones....NOTHING, we have to be willing to step outside of them to grow! And I stepped into last night with no expectations.....just a willingness to see what I see.....and add an experience to my docket....and this weather....well.....it is a formidable opponent amid all the rest.....just unrelenting, but as I often remind myself, nothing is forever.....I have living and breathing proof that no matter where I find myself, that things WILL AND DO ALWAYS change:) The constant ebb and flow of the tides......and while it feels a little heavy, and dark at the moment.....I am not gonna lie, that is also not forever.....tonight I get to support, honor, and celebrate my friend.....braving the craziest weather to get there! I have this wild and luxurious fur coat I borrowed from my mom to keep me warm over my gown! It has been in our family forever......so that is kinda fun, if there was ever a time to wear one it would be today, holy moly.....and I will miss my kids....I am never without them....and they are my heart for sure....I am sure they will enjoy their time with their dad........this morning finds me committed to rising out of the muck and shedding what I have been feeling.....having faith in my skin healing....and knowing whatever is placed in front of me, it is there for me to alchemize, and learn, and grow from......stay warm out there everybody, yikes! Happy Saturday! xoxo