The stars aligned, so here we go!

I have become patient with the process in these last 5 years.....knowing so clearly now that pushing against resistance is futile......in every way.....and just leaning in, and trusting is better......SURRENDERING on repeat.....and when suffering arrives, I know I am hanging on too tightly to outcomes, and need to loosen my grip.....focusing on my own actions.....my own journey, all of it......sometimes it feels easier than other times.....but it is always worth it.....so this weekend is arriving with a dating event, and Gala in tow.....and the pieces moved, and found their way into my going to both......and I stepped back, trusting if they were my doors they would open.....and I am looking forward to both! I have no idea, what to expect for either of them lol:) Going in blindly.....but trusting that I am meant to be at both, and will have a great time.....tonight I mix and mingle with the single folks......and I feel something about that.....not quite nervous......but sort of something lol:) It has been a long time for me to get out in this way......and as I say so often, I will always chalk it up to experience, if nothing else......but I suppose there will be lots of things at play.....attracting a chatting partner that is aligned to you, or attracted to you? And vice versa?Like how does that work?? I am guessing girls will end up talking to each other too, because that is what women do when we congregate lol:) But I am going into it with ZERO expectations....and with the deep faith in the fabric of my soul, that what is meant for me will never miss.....and what isn't won't find me.....so.........that is freedom......I am stepping into this weekend as me.....and letting it all unfold as it will.........I am deeply breathing......shaking off some of the energy that has found me as of late......trying my best to not stay stuck in it.....and return it to the senders......going to meditate this morning......longer......center myself......workout.....and trust......and tomorrow wearing a gown, on the coldest day of my life, might prove challenging lol:) I hope the heat is on point where we are headed.....but I am glad that aligned too....supporting my friend will be amazing....she has been HUGELY supportive of me in every way......always being RIGHT there:) and it is an honor to spend tomorrow night supporting her! And it is all so well deserved......my plan for Sunday is to go to church....and then cozy in, and relax.....each week lately has felt gauntlet like.....so resting and recharging on the weekends is key! I had the conversation with my daughter about how people's actions are a direct reflection of their own inner state.....and it is not personal.....and that happy and kind people do happy and kind things, and people that do not feel that way sometimes do hurtful things.....and it took me many years, decades, to really learn that lesson, and if she is armed sooner with it, it will help her.....Not taking stuff personally and rising above a person's actions is the key to peace and happiness.....I truly have come to learn that.....doing my best to let very little rattle my cage for long.....of course there is the initial part.....we are all human:).....but the key is to not let it settle in.....so that is my wish for myself, and my kids this morning.....that has we set out on different paths for the next couple of days that we find amazing things.....and that when they come back on Sunday we can cozy back in, my favorite place to be:) I have to keep the dating event a secret from my kids lol:) They are like parents lol:)......so cheers to new experiences....to stretching comfort zones, to staying locked into our own energy, and protecting it......and to embracing life in all of its forms:) Happy Friday everybody, this has been a long one;-) xoxo