Palpable Peace....

I have come to believe that the only thing worth actively chasing is peace.....in every way....to embody it.....step into it, and zip it up, and make your home inside of incredible peace in your life.....and my peace has found a way to transcend my inner self, and make its way into the world.....having lots of folks commenting on the peace they feel around me as of late....a lovely woman I know reaching out yesterday, about something that rattled her peace recently, and wanting some advice since I always seem to be so peaceful no matter what....and that is a huge compliment and it feels really good to hear that, because I want how I feel on the inside to be visible on the outside....and because I lived MANY years of my life not feeling peace, or peaceful, or having any peace, at all.....and now I know part of it was my doing.....but some of it was external factors doing a pretty good job of robbing my peace repeatedly....I had a little dinner party last night with some gals.....one I have known a long time, and one I had just met last night.....and I had the candles going in my place....we sat on the deck after dinner chatting....and it was a lovely night out there, my citronella keeping the mosquitoes away....and when I came in from being outside, by candlelight.....there it was......looking inside of my home twinkling and it was a visual representation of some of the peace I feel.....this place, and my home now is a clear representation of how I feel on the inside......a sanctuary of sorts....and it feels like home.....for now.....my home, my children's home....our place in this world....and they feel the peace too....for the first time recently they expressed that they would not put our lives back together again if they could.....if they could have their dad back here they wouldn't want to......they have reached full acceptance and peace....and that spoke volumes to me.....because I have students that land in foster care....and want so desperately to be back with their birth parents despite the horror they have experienced......yearning for that chaos maybe some....and for their hopes of what it could be....and having my children understand that our lives are better this way too, despite the sadness that comes with a family that is no longer the same......well that is peace....peace in motion.....peace spreading its goodness....because when you obtain peace in your home, for yourself and your kids....you have it all.....that is true.....my kids don't have a jangly nervous systems....wondering if there will be conflict or fighting.....or strife.....or yelling....or any of it.....there is a comfort and ease that has taken over our lives that I love.....and so do they.....and peace is what drives all of the decisions I make now......the preservation of it in every way....I used a metaphor early on about seeking to be the eye in the storm....and not losing myself in the storm that was my life at one point....being intentional about saying NO, I won't get swept up.....and I didn't......and maybe more peace is what has helped me combat the ailments I had....peace eradicating it all.....but arriving in true peace in your life cannot be overstated...and it should be for us all......and if you are not in a peaceful place.....do what you can to create peace within or move....get away from it.....you deserve a nervous system that feels calm and at ease...I have spent my life feeling tense and bracing myself for what is next...and as I feel my body right now, sitting here as I type this.....I feel that ease in every cell.....a relaxation in my soul that I have never had....and I hope my kids feel that too.....and have that their whole lives...never placing themselves in a spot that robs their peace either...I want to teach them that peace is the only wealth alongside health.....and that it should be their goal always........I hope you enjoy the day, and find a way to impart some peace in your day:) Start by just breathing....one intentional breath can feel like magic some days indeed:) Peace indeed xoxo