A jolting plot twist......

I have had a plot twist in my relationship........not one made of deception or deceit, or any of the ugly stuff.......but one that is coming as a result of the difference in our journeys.....and where they are leading us.....and I am not sure what it will mean for us, or me, or him.......but it is definitely something that changes our landscape some.....and some soul searching is in order......and the idea of us having to part ways, even when love is ever present in such a strong way, is heartbreaking.....truly.......and when we chatted last night on Face time to work through this new shift in his journey, the deep love and beauty we share was palpable.......so the next few weeks will tell how this all shakes out.....and if this new challenge will help us grow together, or if it will be the end......and all I can think of this morning is how much I have grown in this space.....having so much trouble in my old life accepting change......or even considering facing what I know I must.....and now I feel brave in that......knowing that I will be able to face whatever comes after this plot twist.....even heartache again......but sigh......heartache is a doozy right??? The worst in my opinion....but on the other side of that is the beauty that heartache is the price of being given the opportunity to feel deep love....you don't get one without the other.....and I know I will always be OK.....always now.....I will be able to lean on the supports I have created in my own life.....the wonderful things I have built into my life to lean on when the rubber hits the road......so if we end up journeying in different directions, I know the recipe for success to overcome that.......The other thing that strikes me deeply is that our journeys are orchestrated, no doubt......because this plot twist came quite by accident for him......and was inevitable sort of.....a journey of his faith that took on a piece of its own, and leaves us in this position......and well......that is it too.....it is why we cannot cling too tightly to anything.....as it can all change in a moment's notice, and our lives can change.....and resisting it or fighting it or any of the rest.....is not the way.....and I come back again to the deep faith and trust I have in my own journey too......knowing whatever lies ahead will continue to support my own journey too......and I am not afraid.....this morning finds me trusting that all I need to navigate whatever lies ahead is already there waiting on me.....and that I can trust that.....and that my intuition will lead the way! As for today, church, the woods, and some meal prep is in order! Enjoy the day:)