Ready or not.......

I am spending today preparing for school and the beginning of it for Gabe and I.....the kids are with their dad and I have last minute preparations I need to make.....and yesterday I spoke with the woman that has touched down in our lives to help with Mads.....and I have relief as we step into the year.....she is a lovely person and I am confident it will great for Mads....she has a daughter near Mads age that I am hoping proves to be a new and wonderful friendship for Mads too:) Starting school again never bothers me.....or having both the kids back at school, because they both love school so much.....such a blessing....I have enjoyed our summer and soaked them in.....and we had lots of fun. The beginning of a school year brings with it the working single mom angst and struggle though, I would be lying if I said I do not feel that....it is the hardest part for me......bracing myself for all the last minute stuff that threatens my normal flow......because really I just want to get up each day, and go to work, and have the kids go to school, and not have last minute changes to juggle lol:) But that just isn't the way it works.....so I am not going to get ahead of myself.....just stay present here.....in the place where all of the missing pieces are filled, and I can start the school year knowing that is so.......:) We have lots of other moving pieces in life alongside that and I am taking that all in stride too......I still have a few weekend adventures up my sleeve for the kids and I before the end of October......my kitchen renovation will finally begin soon.....the timeline not unfolding as I had hoped......but I am OK with it.....I have waited this long so what is a little more......I have a fall women's series I am working on and plugging some ladies into it......and I trust that the rest of the turbulence that is in my life right now will sort itself off.......I checked off every doctor's appointment we needed to do this summer.....every check up......every test.....all of it and that feels good......I only have my mammogram in October to get done.....but the rest is all done! I did some much needed pampering yesterday and got a mani and pedi.....I needed it.....and it was great to meet some new people and chat some about their lives....never gets old to learn a person's story......somebody used my bank card in Arizona and got $275 worth of groceries in Arizona, found that out yesterday......sigh.....so I need to go to TD Bank and get a new card today......grateful that they are open on Sundays so I can solve it today before the work week kicks off....so for today church is in order, some preparations and food prepping.....and cleaning and getting us good and ready for what lies ahead! 23rd year of teaching here I come:) Happy Sunday:)