A GIANT reset!.....

So I have been writing about many themes, ones related to relationships that have been playing out in my life.....and about some betrayal I was recently made aware of......again......BUT this blog is not about looking back:)....it is forward looking and thinking:) Knowing that there has been a giant reset button pressed in my life.....as if you took your IPhone and reset it before the last update:) Restoring the previous setting....removing something from your life.....and the part of healing I am in now, related to really all of it.....because the funny thing that happens is, when somebody does something that is similar to what somebody else has done, it sort of brings up all of that too....however this has not been too similar in the aftermath.....I have been doing fine....but there is a sort of mind game that takes place....and where I feel like I am now, is figuring out where to put the story, within my history....wanting to just put it down and leave it and walk on...seeing the lessons clearly....seeing its purpose clearly....and knowing that while it was intended for my story....and maybe even crucial at some point....it is DONE, and doesn't need anymore examination....as time stretches out it is helping it fade into the space, where it will remain. And for this week I am consciously not going to be allowing it air time in my mind an....resetting the thoughts when they come......I have learned that so well now...I do it all the time, reframing my thoughts to ones that serve me better....as I have mentioned....our words and thoughts HAVE POWER.....ones that heal and shed light into our life.....or diminish and destroy....and we get to choose:) And it is as easy as shutting yourself down....stop thinking that.....think this instead....and pretty soon, like the tuning of a radio, what you are "listening" to changes...and it doesn't happen overnight but it happens:) My plan this next week is to do that....shutting down any chatter in my mind that is ruminating in nature.....and focusing forward....I have given myself enough time to process....healing will happen in time.....and I already vowed to not carry this, as I did other things in my past....laying it down:) The first two weeks were smooth at work, bumpy in the logistics around it.....so I am hoping this next week brings more smoothness to our schedule....my workout has suffered alongside the other stuff.....so I got a good night's sleep last night....and planning on getting a good one in this morning! Wanting to grab that yoga class this week:) Starting a new practice is a great way to reset too:) Another healthy habit to add to the mix! So many people at my parent's party Saturday night, who I hadn't seen in ages, told me how beautiful I looked and healthy etc....and it was sweet and touched me, and really what is seen in me, by others, is the extent to which I care for ME now! Each time I have been shown a lack of care or love by another, I have turned toward myself and doubled down on the love I give me, and it CHANGES EVERYTHING:):) AND it is the ONLY power we have! My sleep has been suffering lately amid so much. And you know how when you get in a rut of getting up in the night it becomes habitual:( So I grabbed melatonin gummies yesterday and will take one a night this week to reset that too! My sleep is a part of being good to me, and the lack of it was starting to add up. I can't be my better self, sleep deprived either! And last night I slept amazing:) So that is the plan, to maximize this HUGE reset:) Making this week a week of intentionally taking good care of myself, and always my kids, and shutting down the stuff that no longer serves me.....not giving it any space in my life anymore. Happy Monday! ENJOY:)