If it will be...............

"If it will be then it is up to me"........kind of the motto I live by now....and it can be challenging.....to carry around that kind of weight......making it all come together......but I have forever been an independent gal......relying on ME for so much......and so I suppose that inclination served me well in this chapter......because I was not dependent on my ex husband for much by the end.....and the things I was, I learned to give myself, or do for myself pretty early on.....and there was already so much I gave to myself by the time he left, that to be honest it wasn't all that different to some degree.....in some ways yes....but overall I have felt "alone" much of my life.......kind of in my own little spot making my way......and part of it is the nature of my life, and circumstance, and part of it is just me......and I write about it today because I had more painting to do yesterday, and didn't really want to.....but there was nobody to default to.....because it is just me:).....so it forced me to dig in, and get it done.....I still need to do the hallway ceiling, but my ceiling paint I had in my garage is past its expiration methinks.....and I need to pick up another one;-).....and the to do list in this house at the moment and beyond is MILES long......and I do my best to keep up on it so it doesn't take me over.....but it is a lot.....the snow is nearly gone.....I opted to not shove it off of the driveway, and spend energy doing that yesterday, betting on the rising temps and sunshine take care of it....and turns out that was a good bet;-) my kids went with their dad for the day yesterday, and I got some stuff done.....and I finished what I wanted to....that extra snow day a blessing indeed.....as for today we are headed to church, and then to volunteer some there....and then to a special dinner with my brother's church at the old Eddy Farm......and having a Sunday Funday of sorts.....not too many chores to be done....I have a fun week ahead in lots of ways, and am looking forward to it....every week for months has been yikes lol:) So this looks as if it won't be so intense....some conferences and then some break! Enjoy the day y'all:)