Standing up for ME......

I spent MANY years keeping my mouth shut to keep the peace.....not standing up for myself.....letting people walk on me some.....part of it was fine....we don't have to attend every fight we are invited to.....we just don't.....laying our ego down is enlightenment, in every way:) If your ego can be manipulated easily, well so can you......so some stuff doesn't matter......but I have learned to discern where I need to make a stand.....using my voice to respond to treatment that is not Ok with me.....in every part of my life.....and there are still places in my life where I need to decide the cost versus the benefit.....and consider my audience, like will they REALLY hear it.....and reflect at all?? Or will it cause unnecessary conflict, and get us nowhere.....and ultimately there is a part of me that really doesn't care anymore.....and I don't mean that unkindly, I just mean it simply, if somebody is seeking to misunderstand or write their own narrative based on their own wounds and damage.....then just LET THEM......there is no point in rattling my cage....or my peace to that end......but overall I have learned to stand up for me....in the places where I have needed to and in the places that matter.....having the resonation of those places beginning to resonate more strongly and loudly......finding it intolerable to be in places now to some degree......and working to put distance where I need to, to protect my peace.....our peace is everything....and so much of what we let rattle it, just doesn't matter.....and I watch my daughter....fully equipped to stand in her truth and stand up for herself in ways I have just learned:) And it makes me so proud of her.....she is doing it so well....not letting her ego run the show either.....knowing when it is worth it, and when it is worth letting it go.....and being able to let it go, she is so mature and wise for her age......and people can only SEE from their own vantage point..... experience, perception.....and willingness to grow.....if they are stuck in other places that prevent them from seeing, then trying to make them see is futile.....I have certainly spent time in this life trying to impart reason where there isn't any.....the "Let Them" theory is a thing for a reason, because well.....let them:) That is where you get to be peaceful.....I never realized how often people project their own stuff onto us....that is also a thing for a reason....psychology 101:) People throwing their own unresolved stuff on our laps and believing it......but again....let them right?? So as a few things have popped up as of late.....I am sitting with them, and seeing how involved I need to get, or how much I can let go and leave alone......there is one spot that is really provoking me some....it is a very unjust spot, and justice tends to rile me up.....or I should say injustice....but again....who cares.....it really must be challenging to be this person.....they are miserable....projecting their misery on anybody they can....and then playing victim....and I am kind of beyond it, in a real way....and I attempted to make a stand, and try and solve it, and it fell on deaf ears....no self reflection in sight....and others feel the way I do, but haven't had to say it to this person.....so I sit in the villain spot.....because I was cornered for the umpteenth time, and it was a time I needed to stand up for myself, attempting to put an end to the disrespect this person was sending my way ....but ultimately it doesn't matter either.....if somebody is committed to misunderstanding completely, or not understanding you, or even trying, or unwilling to grow, it is a waste to try.....it really is.....I know who I am....how I treat people.....what energy I put into the world....my reputation in the world:) and the mission I am on:)...and the biggest lesson I have learned in this chapter, is that no matter how kind, loving, and welcoming you are in a real sense, you can still come across conflict.....and that conflict is found in people that are at war with themselves.....and that is not your battle, it just isn't:) So my ego is not up in it.....I am laying it down....and speaking my truth, and sharing my feelings when it is necessary, always open to resolution, but letting it go when I need to.....on repeat:) Happy Wednesday! Today I am teaching from home due to the weather, wish me luck lol:)