The addiction and seduction of peace!

I spent this weekend intentionally cultivating peace! Having fun and spending time with my kids! We did the pumpkin patch on Saturday, and then yesterday went to church, did some chores, and then wandered amid the sunflowers! And it is the magic of being single for me.....there was a moment that happened yesterday, that I was made aware of, that reminded me of the lack of peace that lived in my life once upon a time....and a conversation I had that reminded me too.....and we are made to believe, or maybe taught to believe, that our happiness and peace lives outside of us.....thinking if we live in the right house.....with the right person or people.....and with the right stuff, we will be happy and peaceful....and that just isn't true.....until we do the inner work, and wage the inner wars we need to, peace will elude us.......it just will......but I will say there is something wildly seductive about the peace I have found in this chapter.....and the consistency I feel when I come home at the end of the day, with my kids......knowing that there will be an ease and comfort found there.....peace living here, no conflict or turmoil.....and I know now I have always picked people to love that were at war with themselves.....thinking my trying to love them or share some stillness within me would help....and there isn't enough of any of that to bring peace to somebody who doesn't have any of their own.....and they will begin to destroy yours too...but I too lived in chapters where I was waging war with myself, not offering up peace all of the time either.....and now I know how:) And I won't ever forget again....I have talked though about the seduction of it though....single people reveling in their peace, feeling reluctant to share their lives with a person due to them messing it up lol:) And I see that that is a thing.....although I haven't met a person yet that I would open up my life for that way......not fully anyway....and you know what, this time is time well spent.....one of the things that makes my heart so happy is that I provide PEACE for my children in their home:) A place for their nervous system to go and rest.....not feel jangled and stressed.....and perhaps that is the greatest thing I could offer.:) So the peace I have found is not up for sale or grabs.......not ever again. I seek to be surrounded by people that have peace in their own hearts.....and honor it the way I do, and share it with others.....and I do not say any of this to judge those that are at war with themselves....it hurts my heart for them, and I truly hope they find peace, I really do....I signed up for a retreat for my church at the end of October.....I am excited:) Another way to cultivate peace through my faith and spirit:) Happy Monday! Enjoy the day! I hope the day is full of peace and light!