The intolerable stuff!

I write often about and have become deeply fascinated by the journey! As everybody knows by now;-) AND in other people's journeys.....and here is what I find so fascinating.....I believe in the energy that is around us and the shifts of all of it, and how that energy propels us to where we are meant to be.....I have seen it time and time again.......and I feel I have taken a quantum leap in understanding about what I will, or won't be able to tolerate now.....and the intolerable stuff has stepped forward in such a big way! And it makes me believe even more deeply that you cannot avoid what is for you, or stay in a place longer than you are meant to be there either.....no matter what else is at play....and it is deeply fascinating.....like when I look back to my marriage and think of the things that I tolerated and how there is NO possibility I would now.....not even close.....and yet that version of me was a different woman.....driven by different motivation....no better or worse.....just different....and sometimes I think my marriage could have ended sooner......the energies calling to me to make a move....and I was so resistant, caught up in the saving of it all, and then finally the energy came that broke it so exquisitely that there it was....over.....but it could have been over sooner.....I believe in that too, that we can heed our timelines sooner, and if we don't acknowledge the signs, the decision will be taken out of our hands and made for us.......and I guess what I am feeling this morning is that once your eyes are open and you truly SEE something....you can't unsee it.....an when your tolerance for something has hit its max, it has......and the intolerable stuff becomes so obvious......and for me that has come in the form of negativity and resistance......I have dealt with my fair share of that in this life, in many forms.....and I just won't now......I work hard, not to be toxic positive and pretend life is grand when it isn't.....not at all.......but to feed my life in a way where I get to have more pleasant experiences than not.....and feel good most of the time, and I am used to feeling joy most of the time in this chapter....and work hard to feed my vibration daily and life to keep it there.....it doesn't happen by accident lol:) so I have no desire to be around folks that want to drag that down.....or are not interested in doing the same for themselves....used to feeling grumpy and negative and unhappy....and no amount of my happiness or sunny stuff can combat them......it is up to us to do those things for ourselves....and I have always attracted folks like that.....people enjoying my joy or positivity but then at a certain point sucking it dry,.....and I am not wanting to have my light and energy be drained anymore......wanting the energy givers around, not the energy takers... And the takeaway for me is this.....even with the way we are wired inherently....to maybe be patient....overly....or forgiving......or tolerant......or any other number of things......eventually the energy that surrounds us brings the light we need, the clarity.....the understanding.....the aha moment.....having us realize what is no longer tolerable.....no matter what.....and what kind of life we seek to have.....and things have been falling into place so beautifully as of late for me, I am so grateful, and I have no more room for resistance.....of any sort.....the intolerable stuff if you will:) Our energy is precious....and we need to be more discerning about where we use it....we really do.....I have come to believe that....realizing so many times and places that my energy was not reciprocated, or giving my energy endlessly to the void....and that won't be a thing now either.....I am using my energy for the worthwhile things in my life....the things that can grow, and return to me....my children and family.....the life I see up ahead.....my dreams.......my business.....all of it:) Use your energy wisely folks:) Use it in places that return it, reciprocate it, and appreciate it:) Happy Wednesday:)