These are my people.......

Since my divorce my life has transformed in every way.....I write and write, and speak about it so often because it is so true.....but in that transformation and evolution I have lost some people, ones that needed to go........being betrayed a few more times in this chapter.......by people I deeply trusted, and cared for......and now as I stand here and take stock in who remains.....the people that are in my life now, are my people:) Deeply.......there was a shedding, albeit painful at times, to make way for the new.......and some oldies but goodies still remaining.......having people in your life that have seen you in all of your forms, and still remain is also a gift in every way.......and I have seen things in folks that are hard to unsee....but also have seen stuff in folks that is hard to not see too:) A loveliness and support of me that touches my heart.....I have been wanting to write about this analogy for awhile now.....I love reading the book "Because of Winn Dixie" with my 4th graders.......and the main character is a little girl who loses her mom, and she lives with her preacher dad, who is not very emotional.....and she yearns to have him see her and hear her.....and she misses her mom. But she collects a motley crew of friends within the story.....ranging in ages and backgrounds and amazing stories of their own.....an older woman, the librarian, a little girl, a guy that works at the pet shop, etc etc........and they have a party near the end of the story.....this motley crew of folks......and I resonate so deeply with that.....I guess maybe I am a little quirkier than I ever thought in some ways?? Not really marching to the beat of everybody else's drums.....I am not the soccer mom mom, who has a ton of friends from soccer that she packs coolers for the kids with, or chats about her husband with, the kids all running about....and I have never been her......I have always sought deep connections.....the friends I meet up with sit down, and go deep with me when we catch up.....hours going by without any awareness of time and space.......not a chit chatty kinda mom:) Small talkin my way through life......and maybe as Mads' journey continues, I will step into pockets of those mom places, and do the thing........but as it stands now I have always had a unique set of friends, all of my life......and two of my closest people now reside in their 60s and 70s......and age is not a factor at all.....and I love my own group of friends.....carrying their own depth and stories and willingness to be there, and support and grow and muse like I do......and I believe if you show up as YOU......authentically YOU......the right people will stay, the right people will come, and the people that need to fall away will........I really do.....and I never worry about the exiting of friends in my life any longer....knowing that that just means they can't stay......and they are not my people.....So I resonate with India Opal Buloni from that book.......finding her place in the world, and her people.....one by one......and celebrating them for everything they are, and everything they are to her:) Cheers to my people, I am deeply grateful for every one of them and the gifts they bring to my life:) Enjoy the day:)