Thousands of words.......

I have mentioned many times that I have a love affair with language, in all of its forms...written and spoken.....musically, all of it,,...and it has been the case forever......I remember loving studying sight words when I was a little girl in school, and learning to read, and discovering it all, nerdy right? lol.....and now that I have had some avenues that have opened in my life that have helped me "know" myself better, I know the "why" behind all that "luvin" I have for words and language....and I think one of the challenges I have sometimes is having somebody not communicate in a similar way back to me.....because my need for communication is a big one.....I mean I do it for a living, and now in my business lol:) And really I can never get enough.....Being able to sit down and articulate my feelings, or speak to a group and have it come out the way I want, or when I am working with a client is something I never take for granted.....I slip into a zone and there it is:) And I believe we all come into this world with gifts, ones we have been given, and that is one of mine.....I am so grateful to be able to articulate how I am feeling both in writing and speaking, it has served me well so many times, and saved me from swirling within.....but there is also a downside.....because of how clear it all is for me within.....I put a lot of effort in trying to have a person seek to understand me.....conveying it all, and explaining.....and expressing.....and........well you get the idea.....and I am learning in this era that I need not do that....or maybe I shouldn't have to do that.....If I feel as if I am explaining things to death, than perhaps that means I am not in the right spot......my cue....but I also own my desire to try.....I need to get better at reigning in all of those words.....and it isn't easy because to myself, and my mind, it makes perfect sense....but I am learning that it doesn't to others....and well.....there is my sign.....an I guess I write all of this this morning, in my living prayer:)......in an effort to express my desire for a time in my life to arrive, where I won't need to explain......or express......or articulate so hard.....I will land in a place of understanding.....a place of knowing......a place with less words lol:) But you can't know such a thing, till you know.....but the need in me to express it all is real.....as real as my need for food and water.....but I think I need to adjust it some....writing my blog each day is so helpful.....letting some of it out, and letting the pressure out of the valve.....and maybe keeping a journal at some point may serve me at night....but I am learning that I do not need to constantly feel like I need to interact with words...reading, speaking, writing or otherwise.....finding stillness and presence in my life.....working out and meditation help so much with that....and when I am in nature.....a stillness and quiet find me, and all of the internal articulation ceases....it is funny how we are made, and so often our blessings being double edged swords.....upside and downside vibes....so it is a goal of mine to balance it some....and use my urge to have to explain myself as my north star.....because I don't have to explain myself....I had learned to stop trying with my ex....it was futile in every way.....so less has been more for a very long time.....and it is a basic human need to be understood....and I think when we find the places we belong that goes with the territory....I have wasted thousands of words over the years methinks....and well:) .....I just don't want to anymore:) Good communication is key, and a gift indeed....and while I will continue to put it as a paramount part of my life, I will just be wise about the places I use it in! And look for it to be returned! Happy Thursday:)