Traveling.....

So this weekend finds me traveling some....which sometimes I don't feel I do enough of....but definitely have tried to more in my new life......making a conscious effort to explore the world and go new places, even if it is close to home.....this time found me flying for the first time in a long time, well over a decade.... without my kids....and it was tough.....I do everything with my kids and they are my favorite travel companions.....and I love exploring the world with them.....but this trip was one that had to be a solo one......And it had to be something I did to explore something that needed to be explored further in my life.....and I think as a single mother the mom guilt is more intense.....mom guilt is a thing for sure.....but when you are your children's main person, it becomes more intense......as the plane took off it hit me like a Mack truck how important I am to two humans and I felt the magnitude of that.....as the wheels retracted within and the aircraft took flight....while tempering that some with realizing I also have to have a place in my own life and take some time to do the things that I need to on my journey....and I think finding the balance of that has been key......it isn't easy to work, and juggle it all, and decide all of the places that need my energy and time and remain true to it all as it unfolds....it required much juggling, and much figuring, and planning, and support to pull it off and I was grateful it came together.......my life has been a beautiful unfolding in this chapter, full of signs and confirmations....showing me when I am on the right track....in alignment if you will.....I will write more about that tomorrow..:)...but traveling yesterday alone was another step in the process......it was a big deal and a brave decision for me to embark on it....and I have had many things that have confirmed that decision....and I am planning on enjoying every minute....and I know my kids are in good hands for a few days while their mom figures out what she needs to do too in life amid me into their mama, and I am here for the adventure as it unfolds....I am a blessed human and grateful for the experiences I have been given to have in this chapter 😊