What IF????

What if thoughts are usually cloaked in darkness for folks.....like what IF this terrible thing happens......What IF_____________ and fill in the blank as you wish, you know.....And once upon a time, long ago......I was plagued with what IF thoughts.....just rapid fire things to feel nervous about......rapidly presenting me with things that seemed important to ruminate about.......but turns out that wasn't it.....and I think in retrospect, I needed to go to war with my mind in my 20s.....to understand and utilize it well in my 40s:) Life is like that.....our decades rolling out as Acts if you will.......each having their theme.....the curtain going up at the beginning and then coming down on a chapter perhaps in some way as we move to the next one:) At least that is how it feels looking back.....and as I see what was presented in each decade of my life.....and if I am honest, none of them have been easy.....none.....each holding a deep challenge to reconcile......BUT.....each one has helped me evolve and grow in big ways....and leave behind things that didn't serve me any longer......laying them down in that decade......and so what IF thinking was for sure one of them.....living and trapped in that thinking is like a prison.....for sure.....so as I am approaching my 50s next year......preparing for my GREATEST decade to date:):):) I am shifting that what IF thinking even further,.....and filling the IF with my wildest dreams.....what IF they all come true:) What IF I am able to do EXACTLY what I want to do! And well.......I believe I will:) No more spinning in catastrophe.....I let that go a few decades ago;-) using all that energy to trust and have faith........not worry or be afraid......faith being bigger than fear everyday.....knowing that the divine is in my future days.....already making a way for myself and my children......already knowing that the characters we will meet are there......and that the way is being made toward all of the things I want to do in this life, for myself and them.....and I am ready! I got big plans for that IF as this next decade approaches....and I am just getting started, I can feel that so completely! Have a great day:)