Where do they go????

I have been witnessing enormous transformation for the last 7 years.....people around me changing and growing, leaving their old selves behind.....some people changing for the better and some not.....and I ponder so often the "old selves" and where they go?? Because essentially we are ourselves.....but I have experienced such an intense and rapid transformation myself in this chapter, that I can speak to it some, and how it feels while living it......but I still don't know where those parts go....the ones we can't take with us....but stuff that carried us through our previous chapters.....they have that saying that each new chapter of our lives requires a different version of us.....and I get that so completely.....and the notion that people are discussing a version of you that no longer exists.....there are many people, that I have been close to in my life, that don't know me now.....at all, even some recent ones, that don't know my life....the way I live it....me all of it, being unrecognizable to them....and I have had people comment on the changes, positively, and understanding that I went through a big change in so many ways.....having my entire life thrown off a cliff and rebuilding again......walking in wilderness.....I wrote about that back down the road......how I wandered in that wilderness initially.....feeling so alone....and frightened, like my plane had crashed in a remote forest, and feeling like the landscape that was stretched out in front of me initially, was like a barren wilderness.....not like the woods I love to frolic and play in......one that was stark and cold....and unrelenting......but as I wandered through it, finding myself again.....connecting to parts of myself that I had lost in my marriage....the who I was before all of that too....but also learning a new song, and a new way to BE in the world.....and I for sure have a book in me about all of it:) Or maybe a few;-)....working on that, the format changing as time has passed.......but my knowing that when the format, and structure steps forward, it will be exactly as it should be.....so this weekend finds my girl visiting her dad........my boy coming down with some crud yesterday.....so I am hanging with him, helping him get well! And I plan on doing a lot of writing and working on that wellness presentation I am doing for my school.....and sorta cleaning up my life, and the ends that need to be cleaned up:) Happy Friday:)